hi susan and amanda, been having problems posting on the other post so thought i would carry on here and see if it works!! how has your weekend been? susan do things feel a little easier for you this year or not really? i feel so sorry for you having all those people around you last year when i bet all you wanted to do was run didnt you? its awful with christmas coming isnt it i even go shopping online as to not have to go shopping with all the xmas things about. i feel so selfish and bitter at the moment and dont want to, i can hear my mum saying come on karen dont be like that but its hard isnt it. i feel so lonely tonight i just want to talk and have a cuddle and a kiss with my mum, sometimes it really hits even harder doesnt it? speak to you both soon, and hope you are bearing up. we all need each other dont we? my love and thoughts are with you love karen xxxxx
Hi Louise, Jayne, Karen, Amanda, Liz, Sharon, Marie, Jodie and everyone else,
I'm so sorry that these days seem to be so difficult for everyone and just wish that there was something more that could be done. Of course, I know there is nothing that can even come close to filling that awful void, the sadness and the need that lies deep within you to just see your mum again, have a chat. a cuddle and even just catch a fleeting glance. I know this because that's how I feel, the sadness always there just ready to erupt at any time, sometimes catching me unawares, at other times provoked by myself. There just is no answer, I wish there was, some way we could all feel better in ourselves but there is'nt.
I suppose we do have no option other than to just fight our way through, no point giving up because then the cancer has claimed another victim and another life has been taken so pointlessly and so unfairly. So even though the days can be so dark and there seems no point, we do need to keep pushing forward up the hill, trying not to get dragged back, because our mums and dads are not now back in the past, we can only look forward to them.
I would like to send everyone my love and my hopes that we can get through this and become stronger and more able to accept what has happened and come to terms with it and what the future has to hold.
Great news about WW - you must have lost nearly a stone now - what a great achievement especially when it ws unexpetced this wek, you must be thrilled and equally what a relief about the house. I hope this has all hleped lighten your day a little?
Hope you get the appt tomorrow and you can feel that you are making progress.
Do let us know how you get on, any news on the job front for your husband? Any weekend plans?
thanks for your message you just posted to everyone it is so true what you said, are you feeling ok? you sound like you need a big hug too, so heres a great big one from me to you.
you take care, hope you have a good sleep, speak soon, lots of love and hugs karen xxx
Hi Susan and Karen-- thankyou for your posts.I'm still up!! Still got guinea pigs to go out into the cold and feed,and still got washing up in the sink!! i can't follow my own advice can i??!!!!! Anyway- lovely to hear from both of you.i hope you both have good days tomorrow.with any luck things will warm up a bit. Talk to you tomorrow possibly.lots of love,marie XXXXX
Hi everyone, and thanks for your lovely messages.Sorry about yesterday, I don’t know what I felt like really.I wasn’t depressed, just a bit fed up and a little bit angry.I don’t even know what I was angry about, probably myself.Todays another day, its Friday, and I'm ok and I'm getting on with things.
Sharon – how are things with you and your Mum?I hope you're feeling better.I'm a fine one to tell you to keep strong and don’t give up aren’t I?But we are entitled to the bad days, so as long as we can get over them everything will be ok in the end, I'm sure it will.Yes JoJo is my budgie.I've always had budgies.I get them from about 8 to 10 weeks old and train them to talk.He is good company but he likes to be close to you and he does get in the way sometimes, but hes funny.He shouts at me when I shut him in, he says either ‘HEY’, or ‘WHAT YOU DOING’, so I usually give in and let him out, spoilt rotten.The job is just a part time office assistant and I WILL be going to the interview.I cancelled 3 last year and feel that I now have to make a move and get back to work otherwise I will be climbing the walls soon!!Like my husband says, even if I get offered it, I don’t have to take it do I?I don’t even know what the company does, I can't find anything anywhere on them so I'm going to have a drive round there on Sunday morning to suss the place out.Its only about 5 mins drive, I could probably walk it in 20 mins!!Anyway Sharon, I hope you're having a better day today, have a good weekend. Take care, love jayne xxx
How are you all?Thanks for your lovely message.I'm ok now, just a bit of a wobble yesterday.I'm usually a happy go lucky person, but some days it just gets to me, you know the feeling.The job interview is just part time office assistant, although the advert says accounts, invoicing, estimating and pricing.Sounds very boring.Out of all the things I used to do, accounts was my least favourite, but I have to make an effort.Like you say, my husband is only doing it for me, he worries about me here all day and knows that I cry a lot, its pretty obvious some days, when he gets home I must look awful.Not much planned for the weekend, depends on the weather I suppose.We may have a walk through the spinney to our local for a couple of drinks.How about you Susan?I bet your weekend is crammed with all sorts of things again, I don’t know how you do it.where do you get your energy from, and can you get me some?Well, I'm actually not off to morrisons today, (there, that’s surprised you hasn’t it), I'm going to asda instead.It’s a bit nearer and I don’t need to get much, so change of plan.What a wild impulsive person I am, ha ha.Well Susan, hope you’ve had a good day, speak soon, love jayne xxx
