hi susan and amanda, been having problems posting on the other post so thought i would carry on here and see if it works!! how has your weekend been? susan do things feel a little easier for you this year or not really? i feel so sorry for you having all those people around you last year when i bet all you wanted to do was run didnt you? its awful with christmas coming isnt it i even go shopping online as to not have to go shopping with all the xmas things about. i feel so selfish and bitter at the moment and dont want to, i can hear my mum saying come on karen dont be like that but its hard isnt it. i feel so lonely tonight i just want to talk and have a cuddle and a kiss with my mum, sometimes it really hits even harder doesnt it? speak to you both soon, and hope you are bearing up. we all need each other dont we? my love and thoughts are with you love karen xxxxx
I'm sorry to hear you are having a rough time of it. Its so difficult isn't it. I saw your photo of your mum and dad and Benji on the race for life site. He is such a cutie and your mum and dad looked so happy together very special people. You take care of yourself and hang in there love Sharon xxx
HI Sharon and Everyone, thanks for your posts. I'm sorry everyone still seems so low, there just seems to be no getting out of it does there? I havent done a thing all day, I couldnt even be bothered to come on here, thats how I feel today. I'm starting to feel like Keith Miller on Eastenders !! I came on here early this morning, woke up at about 2.00, couldnt sleep, so got up at 4.00 and just sat here watching the snow out of a dark window. How sad. I did post, but then deleted it. Went back to bed at 7.00, laid and cried till 8.30 !!! What a life? Then i got a phone call from a company who i emaild my cv to last saturday and they want me to go for an interview on monday at 10.30, so now i'm even MORE fed up!! The only reason I applied was because my husband was sitting looking over my shoulder while i was reading the job page, and he kept suggesting jobs, so i thought i'd better show willing. Still, I suppose it will get me out for half hour eh? I've even shut JoJo in his cage today because I'm fed up with him trying to sit on my head all the time, I'm just fed up in general. Whats the point???
Hello Jayne
I'm sorry you are having a bad day. I wish I could say or do something to make things easier for you but I don't know what. I would give you a great big hug if I could. Who is JoJo is he a budgie or someother bird. You've probably mentioned it before so sorry. I have a budgie called sam he drives me mad sometimes always chirping but I guess he's good company for me. I'm sorry you are fed up and think whats the point. I feel exactly the same I don't see the point in getting up on a morning. I just want to stay under the duvet and hide from everyone and the world. I've had enough of this game and don't want to play anymore. What is job for that you have the interview for.? are you going to go to the interview or not? I hope it goes ok if you do, but don't be pressured into getting a job if the time isn't right for you. You are going through so much at the moment and maybe its not the right time I don't know. You take good care of yourself and I am thinking of you stay strong lots of love Sharon xx
I'm sorry you're not feeling too good just now -is there something specific or is it just everything. I wish there was something I could say that will make you feel better but I'm not sure what it is - except that it can get better really Louise. It can and it does, you just need to be patient and have some faith and confidence in yourself and your own ability to cope.
Is there anything I can do? The good thing is there's only one week of term left and then thank goodness holidays!! Have you any plans?? how long do you have off? and of most importance have you been back to your GP?
We need you to come here Louise, it just is not the same without you!
Please take good care of yourself and here's a lovely big hug (())
The point is we need you here, your husband needs you as do all your friends and your neighbours. So no time to sit worrying there's so much for you to do, you have so much to give and share and you're so very unselfish.
So it sounds as if an interview may be on the horizon and hey the goodnews is you've already had your hair done so no real excuses now!! What is the job? I'm sure your husband thinks he's doing the encouraging for all the right reasons so who knows this may be the one for you! At least you should give it a try and see how you get on.
How are you feeling now? Exhausted I should imagine, how was your evening, did your husband enjoy his dinner??
Take it easy Jayne and what are your weekend plans?? Morrisons tomorrow and what is the new job and where??
Hope to see you soon and Jayne you're just a little gem xx
I do hope things improve for you, I'm sure yoru dad must care for you bith, perhaps he just cannot cope at the moment and he's not sure what to do. At the end of the day you have to do what your heart tells you and what feels right for you - forget anyone else- you have to feel at ease with your own decisions.
I can honestly say that since my mum died I am so pleased that I did follow my heart all the time, irrespective of what anyone else said or did. I visited and looked after my mum even when my sister and brother and my family though otherwise. I did what I felt was right and now I'm at least feel at peace with my own decisions and that is so important- you never get a second chance so do what feels right for you and your mum and forget everyone else. Everyone copes in different ways and it's impossible to try to place your feelings, hopes and wishes into anyone else. They will never think as you do or have your insight and nothing can or will change that.
Hi Jayne-- some times you do just feel really low,and you have to go with it and then come out again the other side don't you.I expect we can all relate to how you are feeling in some way,i know that i can.When i get really down i just plod through the day the best that i can,and then go to bed early!!! I dont sleep overly well at the best of times,never have done really,and thats not down to having lost mum.i think its because i'm such a disorganised,chaotic sort of person,who has several things on the go all at once,and am not managing to deal with any of them effectively!!! i get to the end of the day most days,with piles of washing still to be dealt with,washing up still waiting to be done,and untidiness in my hall and lounge.It drives me potty-I HATE it, but i just somehow seem to be too tired all the time to deal with any of it effectively.When i do manage to get on top of it all,its only a matter of days before i'm back in the same sorry state again and it really does get to me.Consequently,when i get to bed,i'm stressing over all the stuff that hasn't been done!!! I should really draw up a plan for myself and work my way through it,but theres so much to do that i don't really know where to start first!! I'm sure that you will feel better again very soon.You never know,this job interview might be just what you are looking for,but if its not,you dont have to take it.This grieving business is a funny thing.Just when we think that we are coping,and coping well,something happens and we're right back down again.as long as we realise that its all normal then we'll all get through.We're all here with you,as you always are for us.all the very best for a better day tomorrow.hope the back is ok.lots of love,marie XXXXX
Well said - so much of what you say rings true for all of us and you're so right, sometimes it is just a matter of plodding through the day hoping that tomorrow will be better and on some days just hoping it will not be any worse.
Funny is'nt it you could just never imagine how much life can change but it does and it affects everyone - bit like a cascade really.
Anyway I hope you are feeling ok Marie and, that for you also , tomorrow is a better day - hope you've managed an early night and you sleep soundly x
what a shame about the kitten dying, the other one sounds a little handfull i bet its gorgeous and bet jonathan loves it.
i lost 2 pound last night at ww, and house all taken back now thank god with no bills or anything so thats good. i couldnt make an appointment with doc today so will try tomorrow.
hope you have a good day tomorrow, speak soon, love karen xxx
