Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Oi Karen oh Karen where is yous I'm waiting for you Mother Hen MELLYMOO wants us round the back to watch her front,........................... or.........errr............was that round the front for the back............ er no not right either................... wants us put away on cupboard til tomorrow???????????
Karen, you better hurry mate not sure how much longer i can hold them off!!! lol I got me light saber out but the batteries going dead so you best be quick!!!! OOOOHHHH NNNNNNOOOOOO essie doodles is eating loads!!! get off you naughty boy!!!
OOOHHHH NNNOOOO even worse now Gingers just turned up!!!!!! lol
hhhuuuurrrrrrrrryyyyyyy not sure how much longer i can keep them away i need backup and quick!!! lol love an hugs mother hen mel xxx
juls, im in your car, you dont know your back to your front.......lol............hee......hee
mel, bringing dans light sabre and batteries, ooh neighbour, get off them there ours, quick get him kate hes trying to drive off with the choccy...............lol
kate, you still in a corner eating them choccys at home lol
I am getting the troops and scouts out to help gerrooffff ahhh ohhhh arrayyhhh Miss Piggy over ther Melly moo neeedsss youuuuu ,, arhhh I been hit argghhh donk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Chickies, I'm sorry to tell you this but all choccky gone now!!!! i did me best but to no avail!!! lol
the lorry driver said he's never seen such madness since the riots back in the 70's and Juls if you ever send him here again he's not coming unless he has a police escourt!!!!! lol I got loads of choccky stashed in my house though so will share it with you all unlike miss piggy Kate who just eats it all to herself!!! lol
