Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Birmingham??!! That's as bad as Chelsea and Liverpool. no offence intended just that they're Mother hen Mel's and Kate's team and me and Karen support Man U!! best team to do so and the football banter on here gets worse!!
When you said about sense of humour I no in a sense how you feel as like with all on here (and like I said they'll all lift you up and make you feel so much better)
Might not be around for a while but here for you whenever, sending love and hugs Teresa XXXXXXX
Hope tomorrow is a better day for everyone on this thread, Love the way we all cope with bravado when we can, Teresa hope things are moving now to make Michaela well again, Rooster mick, know today must of been tough, Mellymoo hope you are feeling a little better today, Karen hope you wasnt too worn out, Bobeys means sleep !! Kim thought about you too today, Juls and Richard, Helen and Caz, Massive hugs and best wishes to all my feathered friends, forgive me if I have missed anyone,
Just about to watch the game although sad cos mums a massive fan and would be screaming at the telly, instead she is in a drug induced sleep after a terrible day, and of course now has no voice due to her op, Good job I went to bed and stopped getting too lairy ( well know i was a bit lairy ha ha) was up at 5.30 trying to give mum a bed bath and change the whole bed due to uncontrolable diarreah with my poor old dad, bless him, then repeated the whole thing again at 9am, then 2pm,
Ooh kick off....... may be back later in a better frame of mind??? Come on you reds !!
so sorry our duracell bunny is having a rough day bless her, hope tomorrow will be much better for her and you all, its really tough all of this hunni i know, its tough on your mum but also tough on you all watching and that you cant do much to help to make her feel any better, my heart goes out to you, and i know how you will be feeling and it aint nice. sorry she has such bad diarreah, i think i said before mum suffered very bad with that too, have they given her anything to help with it? i am thinking about you, your mum and dad. well honey score is 1 all at moment, like your mum, my mum was also a great fan of your team and used to jump and scream when they played, we used to laugh so much as she was very passionate about them playing, bless them eh?????
anyway hun enjoy the match and speak very soon, try to keep your chin up babe, sending you all tons of love and hugs and hope duracell bunny feels better very soon, which in turn makes you feel better doesnt it?
Hi Kate I hope my kids would care for me as so lovingly you do for your mom,i dont know how poorley your mom is jus want you to know i care,love to you your mom and dad too,going to post to all now but needed to give you this message first,hope you enjoyed the match take care love kim XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Not more slaps!! What have I done wrong now??.....................Is it because I support a winning footy team and like decent music (ha ha) ;0) and whats this about cadbury's bacteria being Westlife..... I said WESTLIFE!!, bloody Liverpool I was gunning for Arsenal winning that one.
Hope you are ok and that today went as well as could be
How did things go today?? See you've got an alliance with Mick our rooster in as much as your footy teams just hope your taste in music is better (ha ha)!! sorry just leg pulling probably just warranted a few more slaps!!
How did you get on today? hope all went well and that you're feeling better, how are Daryll, Daley and Kirsty? Hope your relaxing with your feet up having just watched the footy, good old Lampard...wouldnt mind him covered in choccy or baby oil!! no actually not either just in the flesh!! in fact for him I'd even exterminate Westlife (sorry Karen) xx
Well saw the Dr and Professor from Mt Vernon today, they are looking to give Michaela a 2week course of chemo then dependant on how her body takes to it will determine on how much more she'll be given but they are looking at 6-9 months in all and my baby is going to lose her hair!! they are going to do their own MRI scan to show up her 'hot spots' they did say because of her spleen and how that works with regards to the chemo she will become very poorly, something to do with the chemo killing off the bad cells and some good but because she has it in her bone marrow too she will go through a period where the chemo will hit her and her spleen wont be working with the bone marrow as this needs to reproduce??!! We're in for a tough few months and they have said they'll either transfer her back to the L & D after the initial treatment or if she responds well to it they will let her come home and a Macmillan Nurse will come in to administer treatment.............life really is so unfair (sorry), he has ruled out her returning to college etc until Jan 09 (though I haven't told her that yet) as she may take really well to treatment, we really won't know till they start it, now just a case of waiting for a bed to come available.
Well let all your chickies know how you got on, is it thursday you get the results?
Sending you all buckets of love and hugs, love always (and frankie lampard Mmm) Teresa XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
