Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Night Kim sleep well babe, I asure you I am sane at times as are all the chicks, so up down whatever you come back now ok?, best of luck with the fags too xxxxx..........speakin of which Rooster Mick you listenin to them communardes again ! lol !! Chicks got to love and leave ya, would lurrve to stay up misbehavein, but well you know how it is ........ Massive hugs to you both, Mother matey mellymoo, Foggy Mick, Helen, Juls KIm, cuddly toy etc etc loads of love Kate xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
you have a good sleep babe, and hope our duracell bunny brighter in morning, give her great big hugs from me, and hope your dad and bro are ok. been lovely chatting to you tonight hun.
i have loosened that jacket a bit so you get a better sleep ok lol
buckets full of love and hugs to you all love chickie karen xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Night Night Kate, sweet dreams and sending bucket loads of love and hugs to you, duracell bunny and your dad too XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Where's everyone gone phaps we frightened them off!! took a bit of time out as trying to transfer pics and videos from my mobile to computer and ended up watching what I videoed on New Years Eve with Dad dancing and drinking etc and ended up having a good cry and whinge telling him he should be here!! Music wise Ive got the hits on, another drink then bed.
Sending you lots and lots of love and hugs to all of you, love always Teresa XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Thanks teresa Wont take long to send me bonkers as already am only thing i've lost my sense of humour a long time ago so abit out of date how to make other people laugh,you and your friends have a great sense of humour,maybe i'll catch up,I support birmingham city UP THE BLUES and you know what we sing sh***t on the villa, no offence to anyone XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Hi Kate and other kate i've not shifted yet after you took time to say goodnight,awkward cow i am,got carried away with my new toy ( laptop) that is lol so its good morning again from me for a wee while,just ignore me when you had enough,thats what my friends say as i do babble quite alot XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
anyway what football team do you all support Love and hugs kim XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Night Karen and sweet dreams, love ya loads and I mean that!! Just going to have a quick word with Kim and educate her with regards to football teams then off to bed...........sending lots of love and hugs honey, love to all Teresa XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
sorry your a bit sad at this moment teresa,i'm still here if i can be of any help,if not sleep well if possible,take care,sending love and hugs love kim XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
