Well here i am again at 4.30 in the morning and i can't sleep yet again!! My husband Darryl has terminal small cell cancer and, at the moment is going through a really good phase. Which, i would have thought, would set my mind at rest and enable me to sleep. But no, here i am again having had 2 hrs sleep tonight wide awake with mad thoughts running around my head!! This is driving me crazy and i just seem to be on auto pilot all the time. Darryl is 44 years old and we have been given a prognosis of a 2-3 year life span for him. I can't seem to let go of this thought, and maybe part of me can't sleep because of that, as i feel if i'm asleep i'm wasteing precious time!! Darryl is sound asleep and resting well, and if i stay upstairs next to him listening to his breathing, i keep thinking is this the last time i'll ever hear that and end up getting so uptight and worried that i find it better to just get up again. So i wander round the house do a few chores, have a hot caffiene free drink and will myself to sleep all to no avail i might add!! hahaha surely i'm not the only carer who never sleeps, or am i????? any comments gratefully recieved. Take care my friends and hope your all sleeping well. love and hugs mel xxx
Hi Melly The thread is on 'Chat' and her user name is called Donna critter lover survivor x 3. I am sure you know her. The tread I started on her behalf is "Donna's appreciation society", This came about as a direct result of her desperately sad comments on 'Ranting - get everything off your chest' on page 146.
hi juls i have just seen our donnas rant, thanks for starting new thread for her as she is a wonderful support to everyone, i will go and post on new thread in a mo, hope your doing ok. love karen xxx
hi mama hen mel ooh its so great to see you back again, your our little angel x you sound so poorly at mo and we will also sprinkle you with some angel dust to get you better, and a group hug fom all your chickies and father rooster to give you lots of hugs and strength so hope that helps you. will has also been on omeprazole for a few years mel, as he had a hernia and an ulser, after his ops for them the pills have really helped, hope things get sorted for you very soon. so pleased our darryl is still doing well, he is a real fighter and with you beside him he will keep fighting. please look after yourself hunni and rest up till you know whats going on, its our turn to support you now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thanks for the gold star, i will wear it with pride lol, yeah we woke to snow too, its stopped now, cant believe its snowing, whats happened to our seasons eh?
well sounds like we missed a good night here last night with the chickies and the rooster, it is good to laugh and they all needed to didnt they? bless them. hope you have a good day my sweetie, love you very much and have missed you babe, and hope you soon feel much better thinking of you all as always, love your chickie karen xxxxxxx
hey rooster your lab sounds great, mad as a hatter but great, my springer was like that as a pup bless!!!!
the french firemen sound good, shiny helmets an all.................. ooher!!
hope you have a good day, by the way am listening to............. donny osmond............. no slaps please.................. and culture club great!! went to see them a few years back
sending hugs, your a great support mick even though your'e going through a rough time yourself, your a star!!!!! luv chickie karen xx
Thanks for the welcome Mel, I'm keeping your chicks in line ! (well, they let me think I am !)
I don't take much too seriously any more, but I don't want to be flippant and upset people. Sometimes posts cross and some will seem inappropriate by the time they arrive, but it is not intentional.
If I go too far, feel free to give me a resounding SLAP ! I said ....a resounding SLAP \:0).....
Foghorne Leghorne xxxxx
Hope everyone has a better weekend than the last one...
dear teresa my hunni, our michaela sounded so poorly last night, hope she is better today bless her heart. why are some staff so uncaring and insensitive, esp as she is so young. aaarrggghhhh it makes me so bloody mad. i hope you are bearing up hunni and sending you lots of strength. i went to bed earlier last night as i was so angry and pissed off, but michaela will get through this, and from today my posts to you will be positive and strong, we will help you deal with everything, and you are lucky you have such a lovely strong family to help you both. your dad will be helping you all too and will be so proud of how your'e handling the situation you have found yourself in.
sounds like you had a good laugh last night, it is good to laugh mate, and hope it helped you.
hope all is well today, and sending lots and lots of love and hugs to our surrogate michaela, and i will be holding her hand throughout everything and hugging her tightly, (well not too tight, i would squash her bless her) lol
anyway my hunni, tons of love and everything good to you all, and hope your mum is ok, she must be really feeling it too bless her. luv ya babe, i like the sound of the french firemen with there shiny helmets do you? lol (thats the essex girl talking again) lol love your friend, chickie karen xxxxxxxx
so glad our duracell bunny is doing ok, sending her lots of hugs bless her.
babe, thanks so much for your lovely words, you are so sweet and special, and i love ya lots x
dont you worry about not being able to post as much, as we all know you are lookin after your mum, and you are doing a fantastic job, hope your dad is ok too.
kate, what is bobeys? or am i being thick???? lol
glad you had a good laugh with teresa and rooster last night, i have been laughing at all the posts, its good to laugh isnt it mate?
hope you all have a good day today, speak very soon, love ya lots, oh, i like the sound of the french firemen with there shiny helmets, oooohher!!!! lol love your friend chickie karen xxxxxxxxx
Dear Teresa, I read back and saw your post about your lovely Michaela, I think you should be reassured that Hodgkin's is indeed the easiest type of Lymphoma to get cured, my daughter is stubborn and the Hodgkin's she has is stubborn too but no-one is giving up on her, your dear daughter will get great treatment.
