Before diagnosis I had made a life in Spain. Started my own business, had a child although I was no longer with her mother, nice flat. In short a good life. I made a difficult decision to return to the UK for treatment (stage 3 c lung cancer btw). I felt I had more emotional support here. But I hate the fact I've now given up my old life. No work, no access to my daughter, and now my partner has left me. On top of this CT scans show I have possible tumors on my kidney and L1 node. I'm mentally really struggling at the moment and in my darkest times I do think of throwing in the towel.
Hello MoBloke,
My name is Derek and I'm one of the community champions helping out here on the online community.
I'm very sorry that you are having such a struggle with your lung diagnosis and move back to the UK for treatment.
You are not on your own. There are lots of people who care and are here to support you. The Samaritans are available 24 hours a day on their free helpline at 116 123. Mind have a series of practical tools you can use wherever you are to help yourself cope with how you’re feeling right now. If you feel you might need more immediate help, please call NHS 111 or contact your GP to make an emergency appointment. Your mental health is important, and you deserve to find the right help and support.
Alternatively I would like to suggest that you make contct with the Macmillan support team to talk this through with them so that they can point you in the right directiion to get expert advice and help. Contact details can be accessed by clicking here - Macmillan Support Line - and lines open at 8am.
Alternatively again we have numerous forums which you might find useful to join for discussion, advice and mutual support from others who are experiencing similar issues. Links to these are:
Living with incurable cancer forum - patients only
Please do take action now to solve your immediate issues, I wish you all the best,
Derek.
Macmillan Support Line - 0808 808 00 00, 7 days a week between 8am-8pm
