A bit about me first - I was diagnosed at 32 with bowel cancer. I had surgery and chemo but because my diagnosis was late due to my age, it’s come back in my liver and spleen. I’ve had chemo and surgery to remove my whole spleen and part of my liver. There’s some still in the liver so I’m having chemo again now.
I’m really worried about how my husband is coping (or not coping) When he was leaving for work this morning, he asked me what my plans were for the day. I said Mum will probably come and get me so I can spend some time round there today and he got really sad. He’s jealous that my family are spending so much time with me when he’s not. I told him that I’m scared about the illness cutting my life short and now it’s scared him too and he’s worried he’s seeing me the least. Ive told him I understand and I’m sorry but I’d rather be with people than on my own. He said he’d obviously rather that too but still feels sad. I’ve told him I’d rather he didn’t say that to me - because then it makes me feel guilty. He says things like “maybe if it was the other way round, you’d understand.” I do understand and I’d love to be well enough to go to work everyday.
I feel strongly that I need to be able to be honest about my fears with him. But do I need to be more careful about what I say? Do I need to try and protect him a bit? I don’t want him going into work each day resenting my parents for being retired.
Yes very helpful. Thanks again 
