Mum lost her fight yesterday morning. It wasn't altogether the peaceful end we wished for her purely because it seemed the health care professionals in the community seemed reluctant to sedate her more readily. This meant she was all to aware of her end which wasnt easy and which seemed particularly cruel to me.
But mum ended her days where she wanted which was at home with her family around her. Its my birthday today and she had the foresight to leave me a card which I found last night. This prompted a sobbing session. Mum died half an hour before her favourite carers came to complete her personal care so there was a gaggle of ladies crying and saying their goodbyes which I thought was lovely, it helps the grieving and healing for us all.
Mum had a 3-6 months prognosis of lung cancer. She didn't want any treatments or investigations or interventions. She lasted 19 months!
I feel bereft with this gaping void in my life and in my house with periods of sobbing. I am SO pleased to have had the privilidge to care for her and she ended her days knowing she was loved and cared for. Life will never be quite the same.......
Love, strength and hugs to all carers from a now ex-carer. Signing off from cat crazy4.......
