I feel like I'm stuck in between a rock and a hard place. Mum as legions on the lungs and liver but they don't originate from either place. Still waiting to find where they are coming from.
She's obviously upset and worried on top of dealing with the daily pain and exhaustion. I'll do something that helps pick her up a bit, but they my brother is upset... If I don't do these things then my mum gets more down and tearful. No matter what I'm upsetting one of them.
I feel like I can't win. Even saying about putting baubles on the tree (only really involves me and mum) has upset my brother. I know it's early for Christmas decorations but my mum absolutely loves Christmas and I'm trying to stop her getting upset that we've also had to cancel a holiday and lose all the money.
It's just us three now. And I'm backed into the corner of trying to help both of them and I have no one. Me and mum share a room and bed as she doesn't want to be alone.
I'm also disabled with MS fibromyalgia osteoarthritis and FND. My pain is worse as well as just my condition flaring from the stress...
Don't know where to turn or what to do. I only lost my dad suddenly 2 years ago. Now I'm scared I'm going to lose my mum, who is also my best friend.
