THE ORIGINAL GANG OF MUSHROOM ROPE BUILDERS (i.e Mel & Em's thread cont...)
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This is the start of a new journey for me and my much loved friends from the original Oesophegus thread on general discussions.
We have become a close group and this will be our new home to continue our journey as life has become very hard for many of us and we keep re-living our journeys with lots of newbies which puts us all back a bit.
So my lovely friends Mel, Sam, Helen, Bern, Jac, Nic, Dawn, Sue, Cath, Lesley, Jani and the many other special friends Mel and I have made over the last 16 months this is it we have a new home.
Love to all and extra strength to carry us through our next stage XXX
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Hi everyone
Well, today hasn't been a good one for me and I feel terrible. Went to Dad's earlier and I can't believe how it has made me feel. Last week I was feeling more positive and looking to the future more. Now, I'm just missing Dad so much more, if that's possible and I just want to go back to the past so I can be with him again. It's such a big thing to accept, that I will never see him again.
Em - hugs for you my friend. I know tomorrow will be so hard. We will all be thinking of you. I hope the weekend goes well and that you manage to have a few smiles along the way X
Mel - yes, I would love to come aboard your ark. So glad you two girls had a lovely time together yesterday X
Helen - squeeshy hugs for you my special friend X
Kelsey - where are you? How are you? We miss you X
Bern - miss you too X
Nic - have a wonderful time on holiday and remember that your friends from here will still be with you in spirit X
Hugs to everone else ((((((((((((((((())))))))))))))))
I'm off my crutches so life is getting a little easier. It was just too much to try to hobble to my computer and took an awful long time.
Dad had his consultant's appointment yesterday. He's being terribly sick, the worst ever. He has some more anti-sickness pills and he is sending him for a scan to see what's going on. He has his next appointment in 4 weeks rather than 8 weeks. I'm asking a totally stupid question now but do you think that means it's spread. I've looked on Cancer Back Up and it points to either a bowel blockage or problems with his kidney or liver. When he was admitted to hospital last in the EAU my brother was asked if dad was an alcoholic so maybe this is indicative? He's not in a good place mentally and this won't do any good either.
Em - I see you're off for some freedom. Have fun.
Sam - sorry you're struggling but you have my number should you need it.
Mel - I know you're having to work at making your days good and it doesn't always come easy but you're making a good job of it.
Bern - Sorry about the job but I agree with you. It could unearth something marvellous for you.
Barbie - I'm still lurking about keeping an eye on you. Making sure you're up to mischief!
Em - sending you BIG hugs today. Its a tuoghie, I sincerely hope today that you can smile and talk about your dad in such a way that also gives your heart a glow
Cath - hope things are ok with you and I'm sending you hugs.
Sam - sorry honey you are feeling so pants. Just remember this grief is a wonderful thing. It is when we feel that we have walked forwards it bites us on the bum and we take a few steps back. Cry honey and wail and do whatever you need to. Just remember you see your dad in different ways now, in your minds eye, you feel his love and smells ...well smells juct take you back. You can't go back, none of us can go back, its the little steps we take that sometimes feel non-existent, that gets us stronger. Remember how proud you make your dad. Remember his smiles, cancer and death can NEVER take that away from you x
Mel - how you doing lady? Thank you so much Mel X
Barbie - hello naughty minx. Delighted to hear you are being super naughty. Wouldn't expect anything else!!
Nic - hope you are good...hey you gone on hols yet? Have a fantastic time
Jac - how you doing honey? Sorry sweet not been in much contact. I am still thinking of you all and sending oodles of strength your way
Kelsey - great to hear the crutches are gone. Sorry to hear that you think your dads cancer has spread. All you can keep doing honey, is talking, laughing and hugging. you WILL get him back to a good place, it is just bloody hard work
SAM Sam - hope you doing well my lovely and having fun with that man of yours
Sue - hey I know you are reading this...how you doing??
Hey girlie....who could that be?? DONNA!!!! Ooooo a pleasant on the eye doctor. Yum!!!
Things my end are alright - thanks for all your messages. Looks like they may start acting like the opposite to hens at my place!! Monday is the day I start looking for work. Now, I am soaking in all the info that we have no money very soon...but hey I have been saying I need to lose weight!!! In perspective, it is only a job and we have our health. last time I was made redundant my dad was dying, so being skint and stranded with no car is insignificant in the scheme of things. Just if I start to get angry I will remind myself of that. The tourettes is starting to come back though!!! ha ha ha
So Big Love to you all. Sending you all oodles of strength. This illness throws so much at us, and it is you wonderful beauties that reminded me the strength of the human spirit and love. So come on Say it Loud and Say it Proud...Up Yours Cancer!!! Love Bern xxx
hi emx just left you a message on rachets thread but found you here! just to let you know im thinking of you today,and know exactly how sad you must be feeling as it is also a whole year (tomorrow) since i lost my lovely dad too. my love is sent to you,and all who visit this site, with sadness in my heart. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx vicky xxxxxxxxxx
well, I wish it was a bank holiday here - so you may sure you enjoy it. Hows things? Hows DH and the kids? Importantly, how are YOU?
I think I am a bit jinxed since I dropped my phone. The replacement I have flatlined on me on Sat, so it can ring, but I can't answer!! Time to swap it again!!! Right I have to go and kick ass and be a pain in someones side - just cause they need me to do that!!
The sun is shining here, I hope it is where you all are XXX
Ems thinking of you today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyone else want to be a lady that does lunch????!! Wishing you all super weekends and many smiles. Love me xx
