THE ORIGINAL GANG OF MUSHROOM ROPE BUILDERS (i.e Mel & Em's thread cont...)

Yay, you made it! It's going to take a lot of getting used to hun, for all of us but we'll get there eventually

I logging off now but hope you will pop in more often. Give a huge squeeshy one to our girl from me X

I'm sure we will mate. Will do. Take care. SAM sam xx

Hello People

I'm OK thanks Sam. I've had very hectic week really. Getting in from work, doing some jobs and dashing out not long after. Babysitting for a friend, taking my mom out and generally doing chores. I've been back in full time employment for exactly one year now so how come I still feel shattered by being a working mother?! Gosh I wish there were more hours in the day!

I've joined the groups etc but give me a nudge if I'm not where I should be!

Back to work for me I'm afraid. Love to the mad ninja, wine drinking, mushroom growing, name changing, balmy crowd.

Kelsey x

Morning folks, I have taken a decision that I will only be posting in our closed thread from now on therefore I can try to carry on trying to go forwards instead of backwards. I hope nobody is offended by our closed group it's just easier if I can spill without worrying about others.

I can then pop into other threads as and when instead of daily feeling the need, I hope this makes sence to you all XXX

Morning All,

Wow, I thought I had been quiet and then I came here.... Has someone tied you all up and gagged you??? Or have you all won the lottery and gone on holiday????

Just to explain I am here a bit ad hoc these days. Nothing is wrong and I am not pulling away. As I'm not working at the moment, I am out quite a lot and of course not spending all day in front of a computer, so access here is limited.

I did get the invite to the groups....not sure how they work, but I am sure I will work it out. Now I am going to say something controversial....you ready????!!!!!

I think it would be a shame if the groups replaced this thread. I met you lovely bunch of people and was drawn to an active thread as there was so much support, compassion and sharing of experience. I was able to sit back and learn from others experience. I was also able to dip my toe in the water and talk and was welcomed. This is the beauty of this site, this is its strength.

I appreciate that there are times for private conversations and Emma, I respect your wishes for how you need to move forward. On the whole though, I feel it would be a shame if all the experience and fight and determination was hidden from others, with this thread not being used. You just never know at the time when you write how you have tackled a situation or how you feel crap, whether this is the lifeline that someone else needs. Someone who follows this thread but is yet to tip their toe in.

I know it is an individual choice. I just remember when I was a newbie the ability to read others experiences made me not feel alone, not feel so isolated. It helped with my acceptance and it kept me focused on my fight to live. It still does and is one of the reasons why I still use this site, even though I have made some good friendships.

Big hello to you all: Jac, Mel, Helen, Sam, Em, Nic, Roch, Michelle, Sue (I know you are a secret reader!!), Kelsey, Lesley, Cath, Dawn, Julie 1234, SAM Sam, Heidi (hello lady where you hiding?), Beckstar (I know you pop in), Donna, Shell, Helen (Moomy), Wendy, Den (Congrats mummy).......I know I haven't said hello to everyone. Please forgive me its early Sat morning!!!

Much Love and strength to you all. Bern xx

Morning Everyone,

This is a flying visit, as I am rushing out the door. I will be back though!! Just wanted to to tell you all I am thinking of you. This morning when I think of you, I have a sensation of warmth fill my bones. Hard to explain, yet I know that for each and everyone of you the individual battles you face, you will face them and win. If you are feeling that you can't cope, don't worry. In my heart I know you can. You may stumble yet you will turn a corner and the strength will fill you to your very core again.

How do I know this?? Well, I have caught a glimpse of your souls. Our souls are laid open and bare when we feel intense pain andthere is nowhere to hide. You are beautiful people and have more strength than any of you realise. You are my everyday heroes and I know I have posted this poem before, well here it is again

There are no headlines
for everyday heroes
there is no tickertape
no standing ovation
sometimes it's all they can do
to set their feet on the floor
in the morning

they go through their days
the best they know how

no rainbow need arch
through the sky
to inspire them
they have a special courage
shining deep inside

they go through their days
the best they know how


Much love sent to you all. Love Bern xxx

(PS: I owe some PM's. I will do that this afternoon when I get back) xx

Hello all. Just to let you know I am trying to sort out Helens groups as it is a little confusing to her. Please don’t think she has been here and not said hi. I am going to run her through it all later this evening so hopefully she will be on to chat. Love and hugs to all. SAM sam xx