THE ORIGINAL GANG OF MUSHROOM ROPE BUILDERS (i.e Mel & Em's thread cont...)
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This is the start of a new journey for me and my much loved friends from the original Oesophegus thread on general discussions.
We have become a close group and this will be our new home to continue our journey as life has become very hard for many of us and we keep re-living our journeys with lots of newbies which puts us all back a bit.
So my lovely friends Mel, Sam, Helen, Bern, Jac, Nic, Dawn, Sue, Cath, Lesley, Jani and the many other special friends Mel and I have made over the last 16 months this is it we have a new home.
Love to all and extra strength to carry us through our next stage XXX
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I remember the next day.
From complete exhaustion I had slept, my mind empty no dreams at all, then the morning came. I lay there thinking "This is tomorrow, Yesterday my Mum died"
That first day my mind was so very aware that time was seperating Mum and I even more. I remember saying 'This time yesterday Mum was still here', I knew that the following day I would not be able to say that.
Some of our dear friends have passed that first year anniversary of the passing of their loved one, some are approaching it. 'This time last year' can no longer be said, so many 'Firsts' have been and gone. First Birthday, First Father's day, First Easter and First Christmas. Surviving. That's all we are doing. Trying to survive, trying to get to the point when we can talk, think, recall our loved ones without the pain, without the suffering, without the grief.
I remember where Jac is now.
I remember how the kindness and support from you all pulled me through the darkness. Jac will remember this too.
I too am remembering the same feelings from when Dad passed. You guys have carries me through this last 22 months and as you say it is all about reaching a point where we can talk of our loved ones without that overwhelming fear of bursting into heartwrenching sobs. I was talking with my sister-in-law yesterday and she was saying 2.5 years down the line from losing her Dad and she still has the most awful time and cannot talk about her Dad final days without upsetting herself to the point of needing a few days to pull herself back together.
We know Jac will have had the most awful night and I for one cannot imagine how she goes about keeping herself together with there lovely children today. It's the most awful nightmare for them right now and all we can do issend our love and thoughts to Jac.
Please never forget the strength of the rope and know that we all need to keep our strength to help each other and ourselves.
Morning Melanie (hello Em old friend, Bern, Barbie, Sam, Sue), hope you don't mind me jumping on your thread - sometimes find it hard to find where I belong nowadays. Thank you for keeping us informed about Jac and her family in your usual gentle and kind way, you're so good at holding us all together. I hope she can feel our love and gain some strength from it, I can't begin to imagine how she's feeling today, my heart hurts for her, much love Heidi xxx
This is your home. We are friends united in different ways, and this is where we come together to survive. Don't ever feel that you have intruded. Everyone is welcome.
Thank you for letting us know about the funeral arrangements, would you like me to post this on Donna's thread or will you be doing this? I know there are people there that are concerned as well.
My heart hurts for Jac and her family, please do pass on my love if and when it is appropriate.
Mel the Mushroom (not alien) thank you so much, will hang out here more often if you don't mind. I'm doing ok, keeping busy, still have very dark days but think about what Mum would want for me and all that she taught me, and try to pull myself together. Dad being very odd, he had a girlfriend for a time, don't know if he still has - I met her and was nice to her (although I have a feeling she drinks and then gives him loads of hassle which I've told him he doesn't need right now), I can't judge him cos people do weird things when they're grieving, he also only spends about one night a week at his house and is still sleeping on the sofa - I go and feed the cat every day, poor thing she's always on her own. So all in all odd times, how about you? Hx
Hey all - hugs to all but especially for our jac today.
Yea Heidi - hey u how u doing. hun u is defo not intruding at all u keep coming here we no mind at all.
Happy birthday juls have i heard 37 again or something - should b like be 21 for the 19th time. Mel has put message on jacs all mouth as well as here so all will be able to see it - as that is jacs thread she will then know as messages come in so will know where to look. So where do i need to get to to give u the bumps - i promise not to drop u.
