THE ORIGINAL GANG OF MUSHROOM ROPE BUILDERS (i.e Mel & Em's thread cont...)
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This is the start of a new journey for me and my much loved friends from the original Oesophegus thread on general discussions.
We have become a close group and this will be our new home to continue our journey as life has become very hard for many of us and we keep re-living our journeys with lots of newbies which puts us all back a bit.
So my lovely friends Mel, Sam, Helen, Bern, Jac, Nic, Dawn, Sue, Cath, Lesley, Jani and the many other special friends Mel and I have made over the last 16 months this is it we have a new home.
Love to all and extra strength to carry us through our next stage XXX
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Jac, who knows what will be will be. You know I wish I had a magic wand to make everybody well again.
I cannot imagine how tough it is for you (((((((((((((((XXX))))))))))))))))))
Ems I have offically reached my breaking point.....I cann't cope.....I go to bed and lie awake listening to him breathe, freeze when my foot brushes against him at night for fear of waking him then in the mornings panic that he might not be still with me. I hate the funny thing he does with his breathing...for a long time it was 4 long and very quiet breathes followed by a bit of a pause, quite rythmic but now much faster and sometimes I find my self holding my breath for him to take a breath when he pauses. Sometimes I have to inch down the duvet to check if his tummy is going up and down....it can be so hard to see his chest.....feels just the same as checking a new baby..........
Like I said Jac it's not something I would want to be going through. The breathing thing was something I struggled with in Dad's final days, it must be awful to be scared to wake to face the day.
Hun this must be so hard for u and dan together. Not to turn this about to me but i find with dates they will always be in ur mind but they are not set in stone they are a guide that is by no means exactly right. You hear cases of dates being reached and passed and so on and u hear of cases where people dont reach the dates given.
I spose what i is trying to say is dont bank on the counting of weeks months take it like ems says day by day - you will always be thinking of the weeks/months it is impossible not to but nobody knows exactly when hun.
See em back to my waffle again - sorry if i no help jac.
I could give my children away...seriously......they are adorable and I love them but looking after 4 and trying to keep here sane for DH has me frazzled! yesterday our youngest two, just wouldn't stop....childish bickering i know but it went on andon and on....initally I farmed them out to a friend but when they were back home it had never stopped....I lost it, I had reasoned...done the super nanny thing and then explosded....if I can't get them to behave now what will it be like when their daddy isn't here?
