Since my diagnosis a few weeks ago, I've felt pretty positive and trying to stick to the PMA way of thinking.
However a few days ago in our local M & S cafe with my husband, we both spotted this tiny baby girl in her Grandmothers arms and fast asleep. Got into conversation with Mum, I asked the baby's age and she told me 3 weeks old ! Without warning an irrational feeling came over me and I was thinking that this baby had just started with her life, and that mine might ? be coming to an end. I really had to hold it together when I felt like weeping and put it aside. After all, we know that it isn't always a death sentence, but this day after being so cheerful, this out of the blue wobbly feeling made me feel a bit depressed. I hope this mood will soon pass, it does you no favours in the long run.
I sincerely hope that all of you out there are in a good state of mind and finding the strength to keep going.
Hello Normal4Norfolk
Like you I try to have that positive mental attitude but just sometimes it's hard to keep it up 24 hours a day and yes, little things (babies included) can change how you feel.
With me, the medication isn't helping as I am a man, I have prostate cancer and the medication removes your testosterone so apart from the obvious side effects it messes with your emotions - I can cry for England at the drop of a hat.
However by posting, you recognise how and why you are feeling like you do and I hope it's only a blip - if it does continue - remember the Support Line on 0808 808 00 00 (8am to 8pm 7 days a week) is there for you.
I think if we all didn't have that little "blip" sometimes there most be something else wrong with us.
I hope this mood will soon pass
I hope the PMA has returned and thank you for reminding me I am normal.
Best wishes - Brian.
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I know what you mean. When I was first diagnosed my world seemed to be swamped with babies. I’d never noticed them before. I felt quite resentful and cheated. Daft!
