Since my diagnosis a week ago, I've managed in some ways to stay positive. On the other hand, negative thoughts creep in.
I'm of the mindset that I won't survive this and I'm making plans for my funeral ! I don't know how to get out of these emotions as I know this isn't going to help me at all.
Until I get my CT scan results, I have no idea where in the stomach the cancer is.
Is it normal to have these feelings ?
I had them, but I had experience of my daughter having survived cancer. The one lesson I tried to take from that experience was "one issue, one hurdle at a time" and do not look too far down the road.
My wife has had to remind me of this on many occasions. But I did not always listen..... what if and regularly looking at the end game disturbed me. The main issue is not knowing and only with answers will you come to terms with this.
I am 18 months into this journey and I look back at the twists and turns with a sort of satisfaction, knowing what I know now. You will get there.
Good morning
Sorry to hear about your diagnosis and yes it is normal i think to be thinking of your funeral and have fear of not making it. I was diagnosed out of the blue with gallbladder cancer in december 2025.
I would say speak to your team they will explain things to you and take it from there. Take one day at a time. Please ask questions i know i did.
There is lots of support here we have all been on this journey maybe slightly different cancers but we do know what your going through.
Big cwtch sent to you.
Take care Amanda xxx
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