Goblet cell carcinoma - survived but feel so angry

Hi all,

in 2024 after taking myself to hospital on my birthday because I had pain by down the right side of lower tummy, was told it was my appendix so had them removed the next day . Was told they always send them off to be tested but dont worry it's a normal thing to do .

I went back to work , and after 3 weeks got a hospital appointment that was for endoscopy,  so went for the appointment where the consultant asked questions 

Then said do you know why your here  julie, i said no thought to have a camera down mt throat as had acid reflux bad .

Then told me im so sorry to tell you you have a very rare form of cancer called goblet cell carcinoma. 

The tumour was in your appendix and was touching your colon . 

Because it's a rare cancer you will be under christies at Manchester  who specialises in rare cancer. 

I say i was shocked is under statement .

Fast foward , After 1 major op 3 months later with hipec heated chemo, washes out the entire tummy with chemo.

They took out the peratneon (linning of tummy ) my overies and part of my colon. 

I am in remission, which is good news im very lucky .

However in so angry  , my body not the same , no motivation , I feel guilty for being like this as so many people are in a worse situation than me .

I beat cancer but im sad  and feel  frustrated and angry. 

WHY , I SHOULD BE THE HAPPINESS WOMEN IN THE WORLD .... 

Thxs

Julie