Feel.like ending it

Hi Aml77

I am sorry to hear of your cancer and I am glad that you have reached out on here.

I have had cancer myself and have lost family and friends over the last few years.

I do understand that you do not want to be a burden and don't want to cause unnecessary stress to the people around you. I know that cancer is hard both for the person going through it and also for those around them. Have you talked to your family about how you are feeling? Can you call someone tonight?

I am sorry that you have limited time left. Have you got support from your team? Is there anyone who you feel you can talk to honestly about how you are feeling? Have you got support from a palliative care team?

You say that you feel like ending it all but please take a moment to pick up the phone and talk to someone. 

If you feel in crisis please do ring NHS111 and ask for help tonight. They will understand and be able to offer support now. 

The Macmillan Support Line is there from 8am in the morning if you feel it could help. 

The Samaritans are there 24 hours a day.

Samaritans | Every life lost to suicide is a tragedy | Here to listen

If you feel like you would prefer to text someone- this link is for Shout. 

Shout: The UK's free, confidential, 24/7 mental health text service | Shout 85258

I do understand that things feel hopeless right now but please reach out for support tonight. 

Jane

Hello Aml77 

I am so sorry you feel like this - whilst you are feeling down, remember there are others around who care for you - have you thought about seeking help?

There's Samaritans - please do give them a call, it's a free call on 116 123 (24 hours a day) someone will answer your call - listen to you and give you the right advice.

No one's a burden on anyone - we become ill. It's one of those things, it happens, but life is precious. We all want to help you - by posting your message I think you are asking for help.

Think about what you are doing, and before you do anything else today, do something for me please..........

Make that call to Samaritans it's 116 123 (anytime of day or night).

I am off to bed shortly BUT I will be back tomorrow morning - please leave me a message and confirm you have made that call!

Kind regards - Brian.

Hi Aml77

How are you feeling this am?

Macmillan Support Line is now available if you would like to talk to someone. They are lovely on there.

You are also very welcome to chat online or to email them directly. The link below will take  you there. 

 Emotional, financial and physical help for people with cancer | Macmillan Cancer Support

Jane

I cant carry on like this. I dont even know who.i am.anymore. A man is supposed to protect and provide for his family and look at me! and things are only going to get worse. I gave it some time.and stayed out of everyones way.and they got on just fine. They will be ok. Its a beautiful day to be out on my motorbike. Thank you for helping and caring. 

Hello Aml77 

I know  you have replied to my friend jane2511, however I have just read your post and thought I would reply.

I can understand your feelings to some extent, I am a man - I have cancer - I have been on my journey for 4.5 years and it looks like I will be on it for life. Yes I can't do what I could BUT I love my family and they in return love and cherish me.

You bring your family up when they are young and look after them as the can't look after themselves - now it's time for them to look after you - that's how life should be.

Did you call Samaritans on 116 123? - give them a ring and they can help.

Call our Support Line on 0808 808 00 00 (8am to 8pm 7 days a week) they can help.

Do keep in touch - I am around all day and happy to chat - life is precious and one wrong doesn't make a right.

Stick with us - you know you can do this - for your family and friends.

Kind regards - Brian.

Hi Aml77

I am sorry that you have been having such a tough time. 

Please do pick up the phone today and talk to someone. Brian has popped the number for the Macmillan Support line and the Samaritans below. 

I lost my Mum to cancer many years ago now. She was someone who did many things for everyone else and everything for her family during her life. She looked after us all and gave us a brilliant start in life. Yes, life did go on after we lost her but that was partly due to the upbringing we had. We only had 5 months with her from diagnosis. She was diagnosed at stage 4 and was still out walking with a hickman line in whilst on chemo that wasn't working. But the thing is- we had those 5 months and they were very precious to us. We did not care that our strong mother now needed looking after herself and the roles where reversed. We wanted and needed to be there for her and cherished that time we had. If we had not had those months it would have been so much harder for us all. 

Please do pick up the phone and get some support. I understand that you are struggling but please do not let that stop you spending time and making some memories with the family that you love so much. 

Jane