I have limited time left, i'm not the person i used to be. Rather.than the people.i love watching me fade away i feel like going out on my motorbike and having an accident. I feel like it would save me from being a burden and alot of upset for them. Accidents happen.
Hi Aml77
I am sorry to hear of your cancer and I am glad that you have reached out on here.
I have had cancer myself and have lost family and friends over the last few years.
I do understand that you do not want to be a burden and don't want to cause unnecessary stress to the people around you. I know that cancer is hard both for the person going through it and also for those around them. Have you talked to your family about how you are feeling? Can you call someone tonight?
I am sorry that you have limited time left. Have you got support from your team? Is there anyone who you feel you can talk to honestly about how you are feeling? Have you got support from a palliative care team?
You say that you feel like ending it all but please take a moment to pick up the phone and talk to someone.
If you feel in crisis please do ring NHS111 and ask for help tonight. They will understand and be able to offer support now.
The Macmillan Support Line is there from 8am in the morning if you feel it could help.
The Samaritans are there 24 hours a day.
Samaritans | Every life lost to suicide is a tragedy | Here to listen
If you feel like you would prefer to text someone- this link is for Shout.
Shout: The UK's free, confidential, 24/7 mental health text service | Shout 85258
I do understand that things feel hopeless right now but please reach out for support tonight.
Jane
Hello Aml77
I am so sorry you feel like this - whilst you are feeling down, remember there are others around who care for you - have you thought about seeking help?
There's Samaritans - please do give them a call, it's a free call on 116 123 (24 hours a day) someone will answer your call - listen to you and give you the right advice.
No one's a burden on anyone - we become ill. It's one of those things, it happens, but life is precious. We all want to help you - by posting your message I think you are asking for help.
Think about what you are doing, and before you do anything else today, do something for me please..........
Make that call to Samaritans it's 116 123 (anytime of day or night).
I am off to bed shortly BUT I will be back tomorrow morning - please leave me a message and confirm you have made that call!
Kind regards - Brian.
Macmillan Support Line - 0808 808 00 00, 7 days a week between 8am-8pm
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