Radiotherapy finished and I can’t celebrate

Hello Allypally I understand how you feel I was told I had cancer then husband died I know your grief all to well I'm so sorry about you loosing your mum my mum died too I wish I could say something to comfort you, its an awful feeling and debilitating, you can message me anytime day or night if it would help you I have to go for radiotherapy next Wednesday I'm dreading it as I'm really not strong I was in hospital a few weeks ago with pneumonia and now I have a chest infection, the cancer lumps are on my left collar bone its getting really painful, how was radiotherapy is it awful and very painful and I've taken 10 mils of morphine Sulphate and still it's painful do you know what else I take for the pain. 

Thinking about you take good care of yourself. Jen xx

Hi Jen thanks for the messages and I am sorry for your loss. What an awful time you are having. How long is your radiotherapy for? Have you started already? 
I found the three weeks went quickly and the staff were lovely. I lathered myself in Aveeno but still got some prickly heat and some small pains at first.  I know have redness and heat in the area and feel tired. I found this has increased especially over last few days. But the actual receiving of the radio was quick and relatively ok? Xx

I also made sure I ate plenty of good protein and stayed as hydrated as I could to help. The fatigue has kicked in now and I read that gets worse before it gets better? X

Hi Ally thanks for your message hope you are feeling a bit better today, I've been out with my son today even though I felt awful, I pretended I was ok as he worries if he thinks I'm not well, it's hard though pretending you are ok when you are not, the cancer is getting more painful now, did the radiotherapy help with the pain, if it was just me I don't think I would bother with radiotherapy now since I've lost my husband it's so lonely without him, I have my son to think about though so I've no choice, he can't even talk about it because it upsets him, so I don't talk about it to him. What have you been up to today anything exciting  we went into the Heart Foundation charity shop, they have some brilliant things in there for the home, most are new been donated by companies, I bought a brand new rug still in its packing a picture and a side table, table and picture £10 each brand new.  I'm dreading Tues when I go for radiotherapy its not the actual radiotherapy its the side effects of it, to deal with since my husband died Ive been ill with one thing or another so I'm that strong physically or mentally.  Does the radiotherapy help with the pain as its getting more painful.  Thinking of you hope today has been a better day for you sending you love and hugs ️ Jen xx