Feeling a bit lost

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Hi,

I'm not even sure i should be posting here, but didnt know where else to go. 

I dont have a diagnosis but am undergoing tests at the moment as the GP says she wants to rule out cancer. 

Ive had ongoing pain in my lower left abdomen for about 6 months now. Initially it was suspected to be gynaecological but that was ruled out. 

Ive had a change in bowel habits for sometime too and it was only when I saw a different GP that everything was considered together. I had the FIT test - that was fine. Ive had bloods done - also fine. 

I was relived when the results came back, still didnt have an answer as to whats wrong but was happy it wasn't cancer. But the the GP says she wants me to have a CT and colonoscopy to still rule cancer out as the tests ive had dont necessarily mean its not cancer. Ive been telling myself it'll be fine as surely something would've shown up on my bloods?

Anyway, I've now noticed a swollen lymph node in my groin area on the left. Its quite big and uve no idea how long its been like that as I found it by accident. I didn't even know there were glands there! 

I havent gone back to the GP to mention it as I have the CT today anyway and that covers my abdomen and pelvis. So i'm assuming it will show up on there. 

The pain I've been having is intermittent but definitely getting worse. Im really hoping its nothing serious but im not going to lie - part of me is terrified! 

Ive no one to talk to about it all. I am a single parent and my children don't know - they known having tests and just know it's to find out whats causing the pain. My children are young adults now (other than one whose a teenager) but they all have additional needs and im their carer as well as mum. 

I don't know how long the CT results will take. The colonoscopy isn't until the end of April. 

Not sure why im posting - i guess i just needed to let this out somewhere as i'm struggling to process it all at the moment :(

  • Hi  Sorry you are going through this horrible anxious time. This is a good place to come to say whatever you like, a safe place to express worries and share experiences. There’s also the helpline here which you can phone for support. It sounds like you have a lot going on in your everyday life, without the added worry about your possible diagnosis. Good luck with the scans today, I hope you get some answers soon. Love and hugs, HFxx

    HappyFeet1 xx
    Don’t be afraid to cry. It will free your mind of sorrowful thoughts. – Hopi