Surgery left me disfigured and undesirable

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So , they cut my ear off, covered the gaping hole with a graft from my thigh, they call it a flap, nearly 6 years since surgery, can’t hide it, have to live with the new me they advised, it’s horrible and I feel cursed, a misdiagnosis in early stage sent me home with a developing melanoma of my right parotid gland, to say i’m bitter about things is an understatement, sometimes feel It would of been better to not wake up after surgery, but here I am , disfigured, undesirable and lost .

Hopingandpraying 16 hours ago

Hi,

I can’t relate to you exactly and I do not have cancer, however I have birthed 3 babies who very much so covered me everywhere in stretch marks. Really ugly big deep dark ones, I can’t wear shorts, skirts, vests. Legs all the way down to my mid calves and down my biceps. Belly high stretch marks and very wrinkly and saggy.
Now, you may be thinking “not the same, you have no idea” I went from a very desirable looking 21 year old to a very imperfect body one, it sounds silly now looking back but I was so suicidal, I couldn’t be like others my age I can’t dress nicely unless I find a cover up that’s not “granny style” I’m 31 now, I met someone else (my first child’s dad cheated on me) my now partner is someone girls yearn for, muscly, handsome etc. he made me feel secure. I have further “ruined” my body by having two more babies for him. I’m still insecure and I don’t wear anything where other (unkind) people would see and make comments but I am happy, it took me on a long journey realising that physical looks aren’t everything. Your outlook (which has to change and adapt) matters the most. Souls, kindness and caring is what is the most important in this life.
I hope you realise your worth so much more than your looks, what you have gone through is something you should be proud of, not ashamed of.
I hope you find peace, I really do.