Hi, I'm back again as had breast cancer in my left breast in 2021, on Letrazole and felt blessed. Lumpectomy and radiotherapy.
I've had some thickening on the left breast but given the all clear each time it was checked. Now my right breast is sore and tender and my nipple is painful. Frankly I'm terrified that's it's back, my head is full of fear at times, other times I rationalise it away.
I have phoned the hospital and being seen in clinic on the 23rd. I'm so glad it's quick yet at the same time feel as if it's months away mentally and have no idea how to get through.
I have back hip shoulder and knee pain for months, being treated for arthritis. I'm 63.
I'm too scared to work and too scared to be in my own and not work. I have told friends who are great but I can't call them with every panic attack I'd never be off the phone. So I'm here but feel I shouldn't be bothering people as I'm not even diagnosed again and it may be something else.
But the fear of having it return is causing panic attacks.
Just releasing here thanks for reading.
Hi Nora H
I'm sorry to read about your worry that your breast cancer may have returned. I know that it's something that we all worry about.
Can I recommend that you also post this in the breast cancer group, where I can see you've posted in the past, as you'll then connect directly with others who have had the same type of cancer as you and who may have had a recurrence.
I know how difficult waiting to be seen can feel and all I can suggest is to immerse yourself in doing things that you enjoy so you have less time to worry about the 'what ifs'.
Sending virtual (((hugs)))
"Never regret a day in your life, good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience"
