Life after cancer feels lost

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I was diagnosed with endometrial cancer last month and had an operation to remove the uterus and tubes within ten days. I should be grateful it's stage 1, but my emotions have been so complex. I feel like I shifted into survival mode the moment I received the news. Now that four weeks have passed, my feelings are finally catching up. I feel empty that I no longer have my uterus; perhaps I even feel less a woman. I'm depressed, scared, and still in shock that it all really happened. I'd afraid it'll come back one day. Meanwhile the recovery journey isn't as comfortable as I wished. I have frequent urination at night and can barely sleep. I don't really know how to cope with all this.
  • Hi,It sounds like you are starting to process what you have been through.When it all happens so quickly you don’t have time to think about it.As you say you go into survival mode.I certainly did and it wasn’t until after the surgery that it all hit me.Allow yourself time to almost grieve how you were before cancer.You are no less of a woman even though you may feel like you are.You might find it helpful to write down your feelings daily.I found being outside with nature helped mentally.It does get better,what you are experiencing is natural and common.You need time and to be kind to yourself.Love Jane xx

  • Hi  and welcome to the Macmillan Community.

    I think your feelings will resonate with a lot of members, especially when everything has happened so quickly for you.

    You might want to join the womb cancer group, and make a post there to connect with others who have gone through the same diagnosis and surgery, and the link is here

    Womb Cancer Forum

    I had a different gynaecological cancer and had my complete reproductive system removed in surgery, so my situation was different, but I’m sure the lovely ladies in the womb group will be able to understand, and will try to help support you.

    I hope you are recovering well physically from your surgery, but I know from my own experiences how difficult the psychological effects can be.

    Sarah xx


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  • thank you so much Jane Slight smile

  • thank you so much Sarah Slight smile
  • That was a real whirlwind timeline! My womb cancer process took a lot longer. It is such a lot to get used to isn't it. I gather from the lovely womb cancer forum ladies that it takes quite a time to take it all in and that it's normal to have feelings in turmoil. Certainly at 4 weeks I was still recovering from surgery and all over the place. Although we often don't stay in hospital long recovery from major surgery does take time. 

    Later on I found the Macmillan Hope course helped me . I was able to follow it online in my own time and there's no pressure to complete it. I just used it to move myself forward a bit. That might be something to look at later on. 

    Best wishes for your recovery.