Hi all, this is my first time posting. I don’t have cancer but we recently found out my grandad has.
He has it in several places, including 2 large sarcomas. I saw one of them for the first time today and I can’t get the image out of my head. I don’t know why it’s hit me so hard seeing it. I guess you usually think of cancer of this thing inside the body out of sight, but this thing was there loud and proud sticking out of his side clear as day. It was awful.
This, along with his apparent naivety about his prognosis is absolutely heart breaking. 9 months ago, he was chasing my kids around the garden, going on 3 mile walks with a walking group, going to watch the football every other weekend, etc etc, now he can barely walk, struggled to even sit up in bed today.
No questions really, I just wanted to write this down somewhere where people might understand. I don’t feel I can talk about it to anyone around me in this way 
Hi Cayleyfc2e79 and a very warm welcome to the online community which I hope you'll find is both an informative and supportive place to be.
I’m Anne, one of the Community Champions here on the Online Community, and although I was the one with cancer, I know how hard a cancer diagnosis can be for the whole family.
As you know, the online community is divided into different support groups so I'm going to recommend that you join and post in the family and friends group as you'll then connect directly with others who have a loved one living with cancer.
To join, just click on the link I've created and, once you've joined, you can start a new post in the same way as you did here and join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.
It would be great if you could put something about your grandad's diagnosis and proposed treatment into your profile as it really helps others when replying to you and also when looking for someone on a similar pathway. It also means that you don't have to keep repeating yourself. To do this click on your username and then select 'Profile'. You can amend it at any time and if you're not sure what to write you can take a look at mine by clicking on my username.
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