Scared - pre operation thoughts

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I've recently been diagnosed with breast cancer.  I'm due for a mastectomy / reconstruction.  I've been clean eating ever since my first recall but I've had to go cold turkey on my sweet tooth as I want to give my body the best possible chance.  It has been hard.  Quitting alcohol has barely registered by contrast.  I'd do anything to get well again.  Today I sat writing out a list of my bank accounts and other bits and bobs in case I don't make it through any of my operations - I stupidly haven't got a will - and began to cry.  Should I write letters, or is that too morbid? I've cancelled all my gym classes for the duration.  I nearly skipped cleaning my teeth tonight - is there much point now? I feel like I'm doing my own last rites!  I want to run away and hide under the covers at the same time. 

  • Hi  and a very warm welcome to the online community which I hope you'll find is both an informative and supportive place to be.

    I'm sorry to read that you've recently been diagnosed with breast cancer and it's natural to have the feelings that you do. I was diagnosed last year but had a lumpectomy so can't share any experience about what will happen with a mastectomy and reconstruction.

    As the online community is divided up into different support groups, I'm going to recommend that you join the breast cancer group as that will give you the opportunity to connect directly with others who have the same type of cancer as you. There you can ask questions, share experiences and get support.

    To join, just click on the link I've created and, once you've joined, you can start a new post in the same way as you did here and join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.

    It would be great if you could pop something about your diagnosis and treatment into your profile as it really helps others when replying to you and also when looking for someone on a similar pathway. It also means that you don't have to keep repeating yourself. To do this click on your username and then select 'Profile'. You can amend it at any time and if you're not sure what to write you can take a look at mine by clicking on my username.

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  • Hi OnlineSally. Firstly, I’m so sorry for your diagnosis. No one wants to hear this. I don’t think you’re being morbid. It sounds to me that you’re taking control of what you can at the moment. I’m lucky m, in that I had written my will about 18 months ago, but I’m looking into sorting out power of attorney for my estranged husband, in case I become unable to make decisions for myself. A cancer diagnosis takes away a lot of our power to make decisions and is like a bereavement. Give yourself time to come to terms with what you’re going through and facing. I’m on other forums where it’s good to get practical advice on your specific cancer, but “like” posting on here, as it’s more about how I’m feeling, rather than wanting advice! Sending you lots of love.