Could this be my last

Where are you with treatment now? Your profile says T1b and possible right pneumonectomy, has any progress been made with this? I was T2a, also had a right pneumonectomy in 2014 and despite a second unrelated cancer in 2016 as well as other scares along the way I'm still well alive and kicking.

I know how crap it feels, especially in the early days and if you encounter setbacks, but don't give up hope.

I do hope you managed to have as good a birthday as possible under the circumstances, it's hard not to reflect on these occasions. It's my birthday on Friday.

All the best to you,

Derek.

Hi Derek

Thank you for the birthday wishes. Yes I did have a lovely day.

I have not started any treatment yet.  Saw the surgeon on the 13th of this month. He is not prepared to do surgery as there would be too much risk for me. Apparently I only have 60% lung capacity and if he took my right lung it would go down dramatically. Told him I would be happy with 5 years for my grandsons sake and he told me 'you won't get that'. But he would refer me to the oncologist. Had my phone call yesterday to see the oncologist with regard to Radical radiation treatment.  Which the respiratory consultant said when I was told i  had lung cancer, I couldn't have because it would make me very very ill. Seems that could be my only option right now. My biopsy said T1B NxMx squamous cell carcinoma. Right in the middle of my lung next to the windpipe. Obviously that could have changed by now as my last  PET/CT was 2 months ago. So at the minute I'm in no man's land lol. All I can do is wait, which is the hardest part. As to me, all the time I'm waiting this damn thing is growing. As the saying goes, every cloud has a silver lining. I really hope so. Not ready to leave my family as yet. 

Have an awesome birthday Friday.  Love and laughter all the way xx

Angie

I'm sorry to hear they can't do surgery. Radical radiotherapy was my second line choice and my surgeon told me it is close to the effectiveness of surgery but I guess being a surgeon and not a radiographer he would say that!

Waiting is awful as you've dicscovered, all you can really do is keep badgering them for progress.

I wish you all the best for succussful treatment.

Derek.

Hello Bubba12  I hope you don't mind me reaching out.  I am so sorry to hear about your diagnosis and that you're in a really difficult place at the moment.   The waiting is horrendous - scans and more waiting.   I totally get where you are coming from about not wishing to face up to it because you don't feel ready.   I am still feeling that way since being diagnosed with ovarian cancer in Feb this year.   I still cannot believe - I find myself saying that often.   I am not sure what 'facing up to it' actually looks like and even if I have to.  I think you just have to do you when it comes to coping with a cancer diagnosis and you will get through it the best way you can - that works for you.   There are always lots of lovely people on here who will listen to you and support you.   I hope you are doing ok - warm wishes are sent your way.

Thank you. The word Cancer is s**t don't you think? Who would want to accept that. But, to be fair, treatment has come a long long way and it's not always the end of the road now. I guess I'm just angry at everything. It was my hubby who was being tested for bowel cancer when we found out it was actually me that had lung cancer. All his tests came back ok two days before they told us my biopsy confirmed I was the one. The waiting has just been so scary. If I don't think about it I'm fine. My oncologist says its so small they have a really good chance of shrinking it just by radical radiation without having to use chemo. So fingers crossed. I hope you get sorted really soon. Please let me know how your doing x