My brother is in a hospice with end stage kidney cancer that moved to his lungs. He has been going through this for 3 years. He is 44 with 3 young children and he is the baby of my family, I have two other brothers. I am the oldest sibling.
I am an emotional wreck, over the last year , as things progressed I quit my job because I can't be around people, I'm full of tears constantly, I can't stop crying. I'm drowning my sorrows using alcohol .
I've been grieving for so long and it's getting harder to deal with.
I visit him every other day, yesterday was hard. He looks so little and poorly now, his breathing yesterday sounded dense. While I'm with him I hold it together, we chat, we do crosswords, I massage him. Quality time. But when I got home last night I downed a bottle of wine and was horrid to my husband.
Today i cant stop crying.
I don't know how to cope .
Help.
Hi llully
I'm so sorry to read that your brother is at the end stage with kidney cancer.
I haven't been in your position, as I'm the one with cancer, but I can see that you've joined the supporting someone with incurable cancer group and I'm sure if you posted there, you'd connect with others who are in a similar situation. If you'd like to do that clicking on the link I've created will take you straight there.
Sending a virtual ((hug))
"Never regret a day in your life, good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience"
