Hi Everyone!
I am trying my best not to make my husband's cancer journey `all about me` but its very hard. Has anyone had this before that they just get up one day and just do not want to be here. This is way I am feeling today. We have been given some positive feedback- sort of! by the oncologist that they are going to get James started on treatment (chemo) for his recurrant bowel cancer and I really do appreciate that that they are actually going to do something for him but today I just feel like sh**t and want to run a mile. I just can't be content with myself that its going to happen and its one of those days I just want to pull the duvet over my head and not come out at all. Everything is an effort today and I just hope its going to lift. I could have seen this happening a couple of weeks ago when we got the devastating news that his cancer was back but I feel I should be greatful not happy but contented that at least they're going to give it another shot at getting this fixed someway. I just can't believe that James is so calm and just seems his usual self the `one liners` and sarcastic comments are back so this is how I know he's ok I think the news we got last week has buoyed him up a bit but I just can't be `me` and feel i'm drawing further and further into myself but there's people who need me James and included and I feel if I go down, they will too. Anyone any tips on this if they've experienced this is why I come on here as I know there will be someone who can give a few tips. Thanks
Vicky x
