Scared !!!

FormerMember over 3 years ago

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I was diagnosed with breast Cancer Nov last year, I had lumpectomy in Dec and then my lymph nodes removed in jan it was only evident in the sentinel but I opted to take all out. I got the all clear of my tumour site and all nodes removed were clear so I was ecstatic. My tumour was in my chest wall so now the 36mm tumour gone I have not fat in the area and can feel very bony.

I am currently isolating as I have covid and two nights ago I found a small pea sized lump right on the edge of where my tumour was removed. As I was feeling unwell it heightened how scared I was and I’ve been freaking out ever since as I cannot imagine being told it’s returned. I feel petrified. I have spoken to my specialist nurse today and she said they’ll get me in to be checked but I am beside myself. It could be nothing , it could be scar tissue or a cyst. Please any advice to help me through the next week or so would help. Thanks

YesMaybeNo over 3 years ago

Manes,

I have just read your message and hope that someone with more experience than I have (at the moment) can give you the advice you need. I hope that your check up is reassuring. In the meantime, I am sending you positive thoughts. I am also really scared about this 'cancer journey' and mine has only just started.

FormerMember over 3 years ago in reply to YesMaybeNo

Oh bless you thanks for writing to me. I’m laid up with covid so feeling very lonely and emotional. I am on the mend but so scared.
im sorry your journey has only just started I feel for you. Any support I can offer you please say. To ge told you’ve got BC in a pandemic is the worst conversation and nothing prepares you for it, but you do come through it and I’m sure you will too xx

YesMaybeNo over 3 years ago in reply to FormerMember

I feel so bad for you having Covid on top of everything else. But at least you are on the mend and that's the really important bit to remember!

I don't feel unwell at all yet because I haven't started my treatment. I haven't had any experience of illness before. I won't be able to say either of those sentences for much longer. xx

BGirl over 3 years ago in reply to FormerMember

Hello Manes

i hope you are feeling much better now but agree that it is so hard dealing with this during a pandemic as very few appointments are allowed with any support from a friend or family member present.

I am in treatment at the moment for a recurrence of breast cancer, having had surgery in July, now in 2nd week of first cycle of chemotherapy. Only support I can offer is to try to not let your fears get the better of you, wait to see what the diagnosis is and trust that there will be a treatment of some kind available to you if indeed it is something needing treatment.

I know it's not easy but try to take your mind off it and wait to see what unfolds,

Best Wishes

BGirl