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Thank you for your reply Angus P sorry I just say this this morning . I don’t seem to get some messages straight away. Thank you for your advice. Love and kindness to us all.

Hi Rose, I’m 65 I felt fine but mine through on the bowel test, I had to wait for the lockdown until I went to the hospital, so from March till June I wasn’t sure and then they found it. They cancelled my op on the day that was July because I’m high risk and I was in a private hospital because the main ones had the COVID. The surgeon wanted his own team around him in the main hospital. I then got a choice because there was no spread not even to lymph nodes.that I could have chemo theraphy. So I went for that. Scans say I have a bit of cancer left and scan me next month if not all gone I’ll need surgery.so Rose wish you all the luck in the world. I am on anti depressants which I hate taking medication but at the moment I need it. Have you been on Macmillan line? I have really a lot been sobbing on the phone to them. They are a free 0800  it is on this .please use it. Please let us know how you get on. If you don’t hear from it’s because sometimes my messages don’t come up. Love and kindness to us all take care.x my husband at home good children and grandchildren, my grandchildren 3 are adults, had my children young. So I feel for you having young children. 

Thanks Nelly, the news was not so bad today. No spread and op to remove part of the bowel dated for 11th January. A bumpy year ahead but after the meeting, i am feeling so much better. 

I think i may actually just enjoy Xmas day tomorrow and not cry

Hope you have a good day x 

Gosh, Rose2020, no wonder you are anxious. I too have three boys but mine are grown up now 30,27 and 25. I also have 2 grandchildren. 2 of my boys still live at home and have been amazing since I discovered my lump in October. My eldest would help out loads too. He has had to stay away, because of Covid. I spend my life saying this on here but it so gets in the way!

Try to remember the people you know of that have recovered from this horrible disease. It is all too easy to think of the ones that haven’t, which I believe is perfectly normal. 

I was prepared for anything, so long as they could cure me. I believe I have been cured, after my recent op, so I should be really happy. Indeed, everyone is telling me I should be, however, a huge part of me is afraid of what is get to come. The years of hormone tablets really scares me, as does what will happen once I’ve stopped them. We all know, or think we do, what chemo is like and I am so glad I do not fit that treatment. I just worry that the next stage will not be a picnic, on my already ageing body.

Do tell us how you progress and try to take it all a day at a time. I am sure your lovely boys will cope just fine. 

I no how you feel Lolie I'm 2 years after diagnosis bowel cancer resection, redical hestrectomy. 

One person said So your better now ? Your so strong. I just cried .

Big C is know in my lungs abdominal cavity and pelvis. I just smile when these comments are made. I'm on immunotherapy for 2 years and I'm 6 months into that. I do feel well, but people think I'll be better at the end of it, At the moment I am positive but don't need telling that, I'm living it they aren't thank god .