New diagnosis

Hi 

I am in same boat. I have 3 kids too, age 22,19 and 12.

It's so scary, on top of this I lost my mum 8 weeks ago to cancer.... Lifestyle related not breast... So my kids just see that.

Its awful news, and the waiting is horrendous. 

Have you got Netflix, watch Heal. 

Also I listen to healing mediation for breast cancer when I'm panicking (often) and before bed.

My friend sent me a himalayan salt lamp and aromatherapy lamp, they too help relax me. 

Wishing you lots of luck and love 

Sam x

Hi Sam 

It's a very daunting time I know the multi team is meeting today to discuss my results and treatment so very unsettled today hopefully get a phone call later to arrange my resultscresults appointment for next week ... I will definitely look into the meditation and lamp my GP has given me something to help me sleep but don't like taking pills to sleep with having a four year old. I know my three older boys and partner will be there for my wee 4 year old daughter but we are so close I'm worried how this will effect her.

Wishing you lots of love and luck 

Tracey X 

Hi Tracey, hope you are doing OK. I've been managing to keep busy for couple of days but just earlier it hit me again. Sobbed and scared. 

Meditation and bed for me.

Hugs x

Hi 

Ive my results appt this afternoon to find out type stage and treatment I'm really nervous ...beginning to imagine worst case scenario and feeling very teary ... Can't even settle with meditation.

Love and hugs 

Tracey X 

Hi, how are you doing xx

Grade 2 lobular cancer plan is surgery mastectomy and reconstruction probably radiotherapy and hormone tablet for 5 years as it is hormone positive ..... It's about 5 cm .... Probably going for the abdominal reconstruction if the vessels in the stomach are good and if the surgeon who does that thinks it will work if not probably probably the one that uses the muscle from the back.  Lots of reading the options and video consult with the tummy surgeons next in command as she is on leave this week coming. 

Just trying to take it one step at a time as if I think about too many steps ahead I can feel the panic rising up.

How are you xx 

Hope you are OK. I had breast cancer 14 years ago, mastectomy, 6 rounds FEC and 5 weeks radio, with ld flap recon about 2 years after diagnosis. Impressed with my recon.

Unfortunately I'm waiting for results of biopsies as now got it in other boob, been told it is highly likely to be cancer again. I now have an 8 year daughter and am really anxious. I just keep telling myself I've done it once I can do it again!!

Good luck xx

I'm sorry to hear that you have to go through the waiting again it's hard I'm waiting on CT scan tomorrow and bone scan next Friday spoke to plastic surgeon on Monday and have to get a CT angiogram to check the vessels in tummy for diep reconstruction. Plan is if everything is clear and good to go then mastectomy, diep recon, sentinel node removal and lift of good boob in one operation. Have to be honest so scared about the chest and abdo CT and bone scan incase it's seen anywhere else. 

Going to start trying to explain to my 4 year old about me going into hospital this will be hard as she is constantly at my side and has never known me not to be there and is do sensitive and worries.

Hope the news you get can be as good as it can be. 

Hugs and love Tracey xx 

Ahh bless you. Good luck with scans. It's part of the whole process now anxious waiting.

Good luck with talking with your daughter, my daughter wasn't born first time, but since being old enough to talk I've always told her about my cancer. So I have told her there's a good chance its cancer and said I may have to go into hospital. She is also attached to my side, but we have to just keep taking it a step at a time. I think it will be hard for them, but children are very resilient so may cope better than we think!!!

Here if you need anything xxx

Hi all

Had my op, sore but OK. Now I wait again. Its a big wait, hard especially when u have to isolate. How r u both doing xx