Struggling Again With My Emotions

Hope you got on ok today Netty xxx

Hope you are ok Netty113. How did it go? x x

Hi Tina, 

I did my exercise program first so that helped to distract me and I got the shakes at first but they were really lovely and kept talking to me through it. I didn’t like the machine going side to side but I did it and it was easier than I thought. I have applied the gel when I got home again. It feels a bit tingling but I am bras less today. 19 to go! Xx

i am going to speak to them next week about counselling as I have appointment next week. Xx

hope that you are ok? 

Love Netty xx

Hello to all the lovely ladies who have messaged me supporting me over the last few days. 

I did it!! I was shaking like a leaf but it was easier than I thought and they assured me that the machine is tested and maintained all the time. I screwed my eyes shut trying to think of being on a beach but I could still see it moving around side to side and there was a bright light but I was too scared to open my eyes. I am feeling ok a little tingling and warmer so I have applied my gel they have prescribed me. Fingers crossed it will be kind to me. 19 more fractions to go! 

Thank you so much for all of your support and I am  hoping to see about counselling too. 

Love Netty xxxx

Hi Netty,

Im glad the experience wasn’t too bad... you did good hunni. And just think it will all be over before Christmas.

Im getting so excited about Christmas and my daughter’s birthday too, 3 days before Christmas.

Last year was ok, but after 2 op’s and the thought of chemo looming did take the excitement away a bit and knowing I would have the tell the children was praying in my mind.

So this year is going to be a whopper!

Love Tina x x

Hi Tina, 

thank you for helping me get through this awful journey. I am going to be on that beach again today is my head but I will be glad that it will be finished just before Christmas as my other half said right let’s enjoy this Christmas after what you have been through.

I too am excited asI have planned to go to midnight mass on Xmas eve  go to the pub on Christmas Day with our friends and just chill not fretting about working as I don’t get the whole of Xmas off normally and see some of our friends. To cheer us up and mainly for my daughter I have booked Legoland Christmas tickets plus we have other things going on at the weekend leading up to Christmas but I will also rest in between. 

My session today is at 2.15 and that is all I am doing at the cancer treatment centre today no exercise class etc that is on Monday lol xxx

Hi Netty,

Aww it’s no trouble I haven’t really done anything.

Glad you have lots to look forward too. I’m nearly finished with my Christmas shopping now. I’ve wrapped all my daughters Birthday  presents and all girls Christmas presents are wrapped. Just a few family presents to get.

Keeping my fingers crossed all your treatment sessions go well and side affects are kind to you.

x x x

Hi Tina, 

I have done mine too as I just wanted to get organised and sorted as I don’t know how I am going to feel once this treatment finishes. 

Day 3 and I am doing my skin care as I have been advised. But I have asked if I can use normal deodorant on my good armpit as the 0% aluminium is not working that well and I feel really conscientious about it that I am smelling. They have agreed to let me use normal deodorant on my good armpit but I have to use the 0% on my surgery side armpit. They have told me not to worry but I feel so embarrassed about it. 

You have been there for me and really supporting me through my journey and I am really grateful for that. I heard my first lot of Christmas songs on the radio today in the car. That cheers me up hehe! 

Hope that you are feeling ok now. 

Love Netty xxx