Hello
I’ve been diagnosed with cancer this week in my breast and lymph nodes, and I’m having an MRI tomorrow to investigate my liver as something looked a bit suspicious on my CT scan.
I’m really terrified as the lump in my breast is huge (5cm x 6cm) and if it’s already in the lymph nodes and possibly liver then I’m really worried the chemo won’t work.
I also don’t know the classification of the cancer yet so I’m panicking that it will be triple negative and really aggressive (it’s grown really quickly and has affected the skin of my breast / nipple) I asked my consultant whether it could be inflammatory BC and he said possibly, as while the breast is not red or inflamed, the skin appearance could allude to this.
My treatment will be chemo followed by mastectomy - I’m fine with both of these, just really anxious about what will happen if they don’t work.
I’m a 33 year old single parent with a 9 year old son. I don’t know what to do.
Some fab advice in all your posts Dom 
and I tackled mine in the same way. My breast care nurse even said that she felt I was tackling it like a project with a notebook full of questions; risks and issues discussions and each appointment/ treatment treated like a milestone to achieve.
I found it really beneficial to break things down into bite sized chunks like this and I’m sure it helped me to get through one step at a time.
Good luck on your journey and best wishes to Jen too. X
Hi daisydoo38
Thank you for your message...I went to work on my day off today for a positive distraction! I know that Friday I will face whatever and fight...but in 20 minutes it's the 9 may - results of body sca
..and I have not worked out how I will deal with this! I agree chemo will bring challenges and until I start I won't know how it will effect me. My BC nurse has said from day 1 that our wedding wille accommodated..but once I got told I had to have chemo before 2 nd surgery and the body scan I wonder if they will allow an extra week ...it looks like I will get 2 chemo before wedding ...my poor ughter is not able to speak about any on the things happening to me...she won't even text me which makes me sad..she is only 19 and away at uni ...I am lucky that 95% of my day is that of laughter and normality but when that 5% of petrified/ scared thoughts overcome you it's not fun is it...that's the things I struggle with as I am such a happy confident person in control and now I have zero control!! This site has been so helpful and made me feel less alone! I apologize for the random smiley faces but they seem to appear when I reply from my phone...we tomorrow is nearly here but I guess once it's over I can get on with whatever I'm told. I just hope nothing delays the chemo it's so frustrating!!
Big hugs and thank you
Flamingo 13 xx
