I lost my husband, partner and soul mate of 43 years on the 24/8/25. We were devastated to receive his diagnosis only 10 weeks ago - within days we went from living our normal life to my husband bec
ing so sick he was admitted to hospital - there was to be no treatment - the cancer had already spread too far. My husband was desperate to come home and I was desperate for this too. Although we hathose last few weeks together my husband suffered both physically and especially mentally and there was really nothing I could do to help him apart from be there and look after him. I felt every day woke up after the diagnosis I was already grieving his loss as he slowly slipped away from me. He told me he was glad we would still have some time together but watching this beautiful man slowly dng was heartbreaking. I lost both my parents in the last 12 months within a few weeks of each other - I felt a physical pain in my heart and the feeling of loss as the grief came in waves. However at has all paled into insignificance compared to this loss - i feel I am drowning in grief and it creeps up on me even when sleeping. The feelings of loss and emptiness are devastating and I cannot agine a future without my husband. I can't even begin to contemplate what it could look like - there is no one or nothing who could replace the intamcy between a husband and wife. Often just knowinghe other was there and not needing to constantly talk - it was like an unconscious connection which existed between us but the silence since he left is overwhelming. To say I am missing him is such understatement - I am heartbroken, devasted, lonely and alone and the pain is unbearable
