Hope you are keeping well.
On the 12th September i had a biopsy for suspected Melanoma and 3 weeks later it was confirmed as superficial spreading melanoma 3.9mm - pT3a
Before the biopsy I was a very happy man and we had just come back from Lanzarote. my mental health was great, my appetite was good (in fact too good) but on the 12th September the day of my biopsy and my persona just changed on a sixpence.
On that date I went from a very happy husband and father to what i can only describe as a recluse in my own mind and I had and still have no interest in anything anymore, the worry and anxiety have taken over me 100%
I just have the feeling that I am going to die very soon and leave my wife and our boys.
My appointment with the plastic surgeon consultant is not until 9th November 23, but i think it will be too late.
Not sure if this is in my head or not but I am so worried that the cancer is now at its advanced stage and there is now no hope.
On the day of my diagnoses i was told I would would have a designated SCNS nurse, and she will be in touch, but i have never heard anything.
I have tried calling the nurse on a few occasions and every time i do it goes on to vice mail saying they will be back in touch as soon as possible, but hey have never called back, i am at my wits end, i am so so worried.
On a couple of occasions I have also tried the secretary of the SCNS, but again its voice mail and the last time i tried the secretary is on holiday till the 16th October, and the other number she gave out was also on voice mail.
Me and my wife and one of our boys go on holiday next week, and i know i will not enjoy it through all the worry.