Now how do I deal with my emotions regarding the breakup of my relationship and also having to deal with the emotions of cancer, I have no family and only a couple of friends that seem to be pulling away and sadly have their own issues, I feel alone every night and every day, I tried to do things like going out talking to people, I've tried doing the things that I enjoyed before cancer diagnosis and I'll get frustrated because I can't focus on anything, I've spoken to different helplines I've spoken to my care team the doctor and nothing seems to help, as soon as I've stopped talking to somebody or put the phone down or I'm on my way home the Loneliness starts to affect me again. Sadly I have had to use 111 crisis team two or three times and that scares me but the overwhelming emotions just want to take over all the time,
I've managed to speak to the doctor and he has increased my mental health medication slightly to hopefully help, and although I've agreed and fingers crossed this works to ease my head is still doesn't take away the pain the confusion and also the fact that I'm now completely on my own having to deal with this myself.
I've got my appointment on the 16th December to talk about my results from the Lab and to discuss any further treatment in going forward from now, I am absolutely petrified what they will say on the day all I keep thinking is the worst and I can't stop, I've spoken to the team at the hospital that support me and they have told me that everything will be okay and try not to worry.
Has anybody else been in this situation where they feel their life has just fallen apart. And how did you manage to come through it sorry for the rambling and the long message
