Hi dont know how to start but glad to see the start of a new year last year was life changing Jan 2021 had pain in stomach put it down to acid reflux new medication pain went away for a wee while .then April 2021 pain came back but was more painful nothing major but annoying so got sent to hospital for a appointment with doctor at QE this is were my life gets turned upside down and I dont know if its new year or new york from this examination I get sent for ct scan from the scan they find a large tumor in the soft tissue at the back of my stomach and its growing fast the pain was it crushing my bladder and bowel within 2 weeks I am took into the Royal infirmary and operated on as I was very ill but didn't know I was in theatre for 10hrs lost my bowel and have stoma now this tumor was the size of a baby and 2 weeks in icu I was told it was a aggressive form of cancer but they had removed it all so good news but there was a hole in my bladder as it had fused with tumor they were hoping this would repair itself but it hasn't so about 1 month ago was told I will be losing my bladder as it didn't heal so over the past 6 months its been a hard battle to recover but am getting there and here to tell my story but sometimes I dont know were to turn or goto feel lost and worthless I have always worked all my days and feel finished at 52 and now I have all these financial worry about pay bills and mortgage try not to speak about it to my partner she has been thro enough without me adding more stress onto her so I put on brave face and people ask you how are you ..am good getting there day by day...but under the face you put on am not good am not coping well with all this stuff its going on with my health and work just hoping to put on the right direction to get some help with my mental health
