Breast cancer

Hi I am in limbo I have part kidney removed due to cancer about 2 years ago which was a total shock then 6 weeks ago had to have a breast removed the big C again just waiting to have other one removed due to family history I have daughters which worries me sick when I hear people talk of cancer I can’t associate myself having it not once but twice it’s like I can’t get it to register in my head I don’t know if this is a good or bad thing