Not so paranoid now

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Just before Easter, I found a lump in my breast.The Gp was convinced that it was nothing, even accused me of being paranoid.I hopped and skipped to the consultant and the mammogram, still sure that it would be just wasting time and even elated that the mammogram didn't hurt like everyone said!Then the consultant entered the room and he might as well have been carrying a placard 'That's it,it's curtains for you'.They left me with a cup of tea(always helps obviously) and a bizarrely busty nurse(just to add insult to already considerable injury).I was in shock of course,convinced that I was going to die.I called a few of my friends at work to tell them(poor things!) and since then It still feels like I am waiting to awake from a nightmare....

That same week skin saving masectomy and lymph node clearance.Two lumps found 2.5cm and 1.2cm and 1 lymph node.Pathology came back HER2 + and hormone neg.Not that great but consultant and oncologist seem strangely optimistic(is this some cunning ploy to keep the patient positive?)

I'm to have 4 times FEC, 4 times Taxotere and a year of herceptin to overlap with the taxotere.Had one FEC.Not so bad.Weirdly pregnancy symptoms came back, but just for few days.Next FEC due on thursday this week.I had the scalp cooling and so far hair still clinging on(although I've had it cut short and look like a gay boy), but it was hideous and also heard that alot of docs don't like it as prevents chemo getting to brain so I think I'll stop.

Yesterday had central line fitted.Was bigger performance than expected and inserted under general.Now have bandage over remaining breast and weird vampire scars on neck(what IS that?)

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  • Hi mikimiki,

    I would guess the GP was dismissive because a diagnosis of BC is less likely in younger women, but at least he/she did refer you on to a Consultant for confirmation. It also sounds that once it was confirmed they got their collective fingers out and got to work swiftly on your treatment.

    I expect you're still reeling from what has happened and is still happening. It can be a frightening time and our imaginations do overtime. I wish you strength to deal with your future treatment.

    There is another site for breast cancer patients -

    BREAST CANCER CARE (BCC for short). They have a forum for younger women which might be worth a look.

    Best wishes,

    KateG

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi Mikimiki.

    Just wanted to send you all good wishes to let you that I'm thinking of you. Take care.

    Vee.xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi ys mikimiki,

    All the best with your treatment,try and be positive,

    as you can,it does help.  As for the teeth marks on your neck, I would check your nursing staff out for anybody with Fangs.!!!!!!!!!!!

    You take care and look after yourself.Big Hugs.

    Love Sarsfield.xxx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    Hi mikimiki, I was diagnosed with breast cancer in December 2003. Mine was grade 3.  I had a lumpectomy, 6 months of chemo and 6 weeks radiotherapy.  I was given the all clear in September last year, so there is hope out there.

    Stay positive if you can.  You are at the start of a scary journey, but we all understand on here how you are feeling and don't hesitate to take all the support you need.

    I wish you all the very best with your forthcoming treatment and recovery.

    Take care. Christine xx

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember

    I forgot to mention that I was 37 at diagnosis also.