OK here goes. My sister was diagnosed with a rare cancer of the blood in the early part of this year, the good news is she is clear the not quite so good news is she is underggoing hopefully her last round of intense chemo on Friday to prevent the cancer coming back. I do not know the name of this cancer and all I know about treatment is she did not tell anyone when she was diagnosed and we only found out about it whrn she thought it was not working. Now we have been told she needs this last round so the cancer does not come back and she will lose all of her hair and be ill. She is having 5 injections in her stomach in one seringe and two in her arm in one seringe. She was told her hair will fall out almost instantly and it will be the equivilent of being drunk. She is having the treatment at home and told us the doctors will give the injections then leave and will not come back to check on her nor will there be a nurse to keep an eye on her.
I am worried sick because I am training to be a nurse and this does not seem right to me. I know she is finding it very hard to talk about so I do not question. This is not about me but I am worried sick as she looks so frail and I am so worried what might happen to her if she is left by herself. I am not her carer just a worried big sister who can not make it better. I cant talk to family as it just upsets them and my partner just says well shes going to be better afterwards. I know this but I also know she must get ill before she can get better. If I talk about it at work I feel stupid because I might burst in to tears and I should be supporting people not the other way around.
This is all so frustraiting as I was the primary carer for my best friend who had breast cancer and I feel I dealt so well with that. This time I just feel out of control and like I have lost the plot. I feel sick to the pit of my stomach with worry. I want it to be saterday so the treatment is over and my sis will be on the road to recovery.
