I am feeling very worried today. My scan was fine but I still have this pain (ache) under my breastbone and don't really ever feel very hungry. I have had irritable bowel/stomach symptoms all the way through the chemo and it just worries me that my appetite is not good. One of my best pleasures has always been eating and it makes me sad not to enjoy it anymore. As my CT scan was normal I feel like I'm making a fuss about nothing but I'm so scared it's coming back. In my mind I feel that the last 3 chemo sessions after my hysterectomy were not so effective but this is probably not the case. I'm also paranoid about the fact that my last CA125 was 12 but the week before it was 11. Is it going up? Do other people feel as worried as I do? I have loads of time to think about it all as my boss made me redundant after my last chemo...........what a nice man!
