I went to UCHL yesterday to see Professor Kelly. I always get a bad feeling when I have an appointment to see consultant's. they have never told me anything positive. It now seem's my bladder has attached Itself to my rectum. making It even more difficult to remove. one option Is to remove my bowel along with my bladder another Is to leave my bladder along with the tumour but I can't see how this can be done because they have told me the tumour Is untreatable. but they now say they could use chemotherapy which they could not do before because of my heart disease. I left his office yesterday In a state of bewilderment. next week I have another CPEX and another CT scan. and still have no Idea when this operation will take place. I have been assured It will be before Christmas.( I and my wife never had Christmas last year because I was not discharged until Christmas eve. I spent Christmas day In bed ). I had hoped this year would be different. but It seem's unlikely.
