So what a day; after a period when we at least seemed to be holding some level ground my darling daughter tried to overdose this afternoon. Thankfully we caught her before she could do too much damage (all my medication is kept under lock and key) but a visit to A&E followed. She is now home but a proposed move to a secure school as a day patient now looks likely to be in patient.
This is tearing us all apart; dearest wifey is predictably in pieces but holding it together well, I offer as much comfort as I can but at times this feels very inadequate. I dont know where to turn, I am (as is wifey) so incredibly stressed I panic my illness will return, both my jaw and back ache from tension, I cry often, at the slightest provocation, often having to run out of the room to hide this. But I also feel incredibly selfish thinking about myself. I desperately want my daughter to get better, at any cost, any, but I don't want to be back in hospital either. As much for the stress this would bring to wifey as for any other reason.
Depression and anxiety runs in my family, I have suffered before and am again - god knows its my genes that are hurting my daughter.
I am not sure if anyone has any suggestions, I know I need to talk to someone, I am not sure who, either way I find it therapeutic to scribble, so forgive me,
Thanks
If intereested there is more track as comments on my previous blog as I wasn't sure where to post, Doh!
FormerMember
Dear Bob,
So sorry things have got so much worse since you lst blogged. I really can't offer any advice myself except to please phone the Macmillan advice line. 0808 808 0000 they are open now so phone them as soon as you read this. You need some professional help with all of this, you should not be expected to deal with it on your own. Go and see your gp too and see if you can get some support.
Just wanted to let you know that we are here and you are not alone... sending you a big hug
Hello Bob LM has given you good advice.i am sorry both you,your wife and daughter are going through such a traumatic time.I do not know all the circumstances of your situation but I venture to say that perhaps your daughter being an in patient maybe helpful for her that she will receive help the itch whatever it is she is going through.And perhaps you could use this time knowing she is receiving help and is in a safe place to look for help and support for both you and your wife through your GP or Macmillan.In some areas there are carer support groups for carers of those who have mental health problems like MIND who are usually very helpful and supportive you can also access some counselling through your GP.Do not blame yourself or your genes you are doing your best in the situation and as LM said you are not alone Cruton x
Thanks very much to both for your kind messages of support. Things seemed to have calmed down slightly and daughter starts as an in patient at a secure unit on Monday, she is scheduled to do a two week accessment and then we see where we go. I am seeking some help also, before my head explodes!
Thanks again, I will post more as things progress.
