Don't know what to do with myself

Monday again and another week of feeling on edge waiting for results from my dads biopsy. Had an ok weekend, weather was nice and warm but unfortunately it was tainted by my dads apparent increase in breathlessness. By daughter and I accompanied my dad to do the big shop at tesco, while my husband helped my mum take some stuff to the tip. My dad was ok in tesco but said he got breathless and tapped his chest a few times :( he said even it scared him how the breathlessness has got worse in the last few days. We had a lovely family meal out yesterday, and at the rate my dad consumes food you would never guess he was ill or understand why he is losing weight. My dad also spoke about going to the hairdressers to have his head shaved if he is offered chemo :( how sad this makes me feel, what conversations are like now! I still find myself being a bit reclusive, not wanting to socialise with anyone on the 'outside' of this situation. Preferring to either be with my family or shut myself in the bathroom for a hot bath, most nites going to bed at 8. Today I have to take my daughter to nursery, not lookin g forward to the small talk and gossiping that the other mums seem to live for :-/ On another note I am not feeling to hot myself seem to have sore breasts 3 weeks before my period, they actually hurt when I walk :( can feel old health anxietys bubbling to the surface, had my right breast scanned last year after a melt down :-/. Trying to tell myself that they could be hurting as I seem to have grown out of my bra slightly or maybe it's my hormones. I don't know either way I just don't want to be worrying about myself have enough to worry about. Have invited myself round my mum and dads for dinner later just want to spend all my time with them, which i always used to want to anyway but now it feels different and I hate leaving them :( Bla bla what a lot of ranting I have done....... Feel free to comment specially if you have any remedies for sore boobs lol xxx