I appear to be awake in a rather alien environment and what are all these weird noises. Oh, this is good, I have no pain and can think straight, but now I realise, I don't really want to think. I am now on my own at last and I am very, very scared.
What just happened! 48 hours ago, under pressure from family and friends, I took my pain to the GP and here I am, eight consultations, two scans and four cancelled procedures and a late night diagnosis of advanced anal cancer later, waking up in a nightmare in ICU with no future. How can this be happening. I can't think, I can't breathe and I am terrified to move. Just in case. Surely not. Not me.
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