We were given the worst possible news last Thursday that my dad has cancer in multiple places. He's 81 years old and I am 39. He won't be having any treatment just pain relief. I'm really struggling to see his decline and as he didn't want to know a timescale, I'm terrified that he will go very soon. It's really hard to stay strong for my children, mum and dad. All of us are staying strong, dad included. As he has said, he's not ready to go and neither are we to let him. With Christmas this coming week, it's awful, I look at the tree with despair yet try to cheerful for my children. My message I guess is to those struggling like us, hang in there you're doing well even when you don't feel. Keep fighting x
