Sarurday 10th December.
It was another ok day today, except for the bit when I tried to put my wig on, I just couldn't get it on right, I never asked the wig lady what to do with my ears, does the wig go behind or over my ears. I tightened the wig with the straps and tried again, still no joy, it looked so good when I tried it on when I had hair and with the wig lady. It was so disappointing. I wanted to cry, then I thought, hold on it's only a wig, there are bigger things going on in your life at the moment to cry about. So I put it way and tied a nice head scarf and got on with things. I will try again tomorrow.
It was a quiet day, made some soup and then walked the dogs. Then we watched a Christmas film, it was so awful, really sickly, one of those films when you can predict the ending five minutes into the film,but it was raining outside and there was nothing else to do so it was quite nice to be lazy.
The very surprising thing that happened this morning is that the big cyst that has been sitting on top of the tumour for weeks has completely disappeared now, it's been getting smaller over the last two weeks since the chemo started, but it's gone! Where did it go? I think I can feel a flattish lump now so I'm guessing that's the tumour, I'm not sure I would have noticed it was there it if it wasn't for the cyst.
I hope the chemo is working on the tumour the same as it did possibly did on that cyst. It's nice not having to look at the huge cyst now, that really scared me, every morning and evening. It was drained by the consultant to get a sample of it and the lump underneath at the end of October, but it was back the next day, I just hope it stays away. My breast care nurse told me that the cyst was part of the cancer. I remember her telling me that, it was a low point for me. I shall ask questions about it next week.
That was my day, one of disappointment and surprise.
Stop this ride...I want to get off!!!
