Tuesday 31st January 2017
Today has been a long day, got up did the usual temperature which was fine, I always worry more on blood test on chemo day. I made some scones to take in with me and tidied around as I knew we'd be back late.
The chemo was fine after the first attempt at getting the cannula in failed miserably when she punctured my vein, changed sides had everything went well after that, I was worried about the allergic reaction with this new chemo as the nurse mentioned if when I have it and get dizziness, feeling hot or a nettle rash I need to ring the bell straight away. I've always really suffered with nettle rash if I get stung, it is painful for days, I am so careful not to go near nettles, that's what was worrying me today, but it didn't happen.
Had a nice dog walk on the way home, just a little thing to do, but something normal was nice to do on a day that not normal things happened.
Last night I was awake for hours, probably the steroids. Only one more day of them tomorrow. I'm hoping the sleep angel will call tonight.
Hopefully we are going to visit some friends tomorrow who got a puppy on Sunday, I bought some toys today for him and can't wait to see him, something to keep me busy. Good night.
Fate.
Sometimes Fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions.
You change direction but the sandstorm chases you.
You turn again, but the sandstorm adjusts.
Over and over you play this out, like some ominous dance with the devil just before dawn.
Why?
Because this storm isn't something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you.
This storm is you.
But when you come out of the storm, you won't be the same person that walked in.
That's what the storm is all about, and storms never last forever.
Stop this ride..I want to get off!!!
