Monday 12th December.
The last couple of days have been uneventful really, except that I had another fall out with the wig yesterday. I went out with it on for the first time in the morning, just to the co-op, it drove me absolutely crazy, the fringe was flopping all over, I wanted to rip it off in the shop. I didn't care what people thought, but I really didn't want to frighten the children in there. We got held up at the till as the person in front had a query over the price of something and then the till was on a go slow, I just stood there thinking I wonder if my wig is on still on straight as I'd been messing with it. I just wanted to get out of there as quickly as I could so I could take it off. My husband popped out to the car as we'd left the bags in the boot, when he came back he said it took him ages to find me, I had a giggle and said maybe you didn't recognise me with my wig on.
We had arranged to meet our friends at the beach and have lunch in the cafe in the afternoon so when I got home I took the wig off and put my bobble hat on to go there. It was so much easier. I'm not sure what to do with the wig other than to ask her to trim the long fringe. It seems a shame to leave it in the drawer really when it does look nice when I do get it on properly.
We did have a nice couple of hours out at the beach with our friends and the dogs, then we came back and were lazy (again)
We FaceTimed hubbys parents in the evening. I thought I'd better put the wig on for them as I didn't want to scare them. I didn't join in last week as I was in the middle of a melt down, so there's a definite improvement. It was a quiet evening and when I went to bed I slept quite well. I'm so pleased I don't use the sleeping tablets anymore.
Today has been another quiet day, just general house work, I feel absolutely fine, other than a little achy around my head, but I think that's me doing the headscarf up a bit tight, I just feel kind of empty emotionally today, but that's okay, it's better than being sad or being scared. I think it's tiredness really. I am going to have a nice bath and an early night and see if I can start reading a book that I've had for ages.
That's it another day done, another day nearer to Friday and the next chemo session, and that means another day closer to the end goal.
Stop this ride...I want to get off!!!
