Ditto.

Hi JM,

Go and enjoy seeing your daughter take your telephone numbers with you,all your meds and  your  hand sanitizer and of course all of us, you can do this,you will be fine,you are in charge,and you will feel so much better for going, all your fears and how you feel will be left in that box, on that shelf, in that room, in the back of our minds, because they are to heavy for you right now, and there is no room in the car, and they weren.t invited anyway.,

Your daughter will be counting the days,and she will be giving her mamma the biggest hug because you deserve it.

On a funny note i have just realised why i am perspiring somewhat, i have still got me bobble hat on after taking the dog out and the heating is still on indoors,aw well i must still have a bit of chemo brain going on,thats my excuse and i am sticking to it.

Have an absolutely fab time with your daughter, i am at the grand daughters Christmas concert tomorrow better take plenty of tissues.

Love and Hugs

Dee xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi JM, I think we all have days that when you get out of bed in the morning it feels like your just killing time until climbing back into bed . But we get through it and sometimes I feel like asking when someone says " how are you " DO YOU REALLY WANT TO KNOW ! Thankfully I realise that they are just being polite or maybe feel awkward so just reply fine. Recently in a shopping mall when approached by someone from a cancer charity asking if I would like to give something I felt like saying that he could have my tumour for research. I thought it humerous, my wife didn't and warned me not to, I said It would be meant in jest, she didn't think so. Have a great time at your daughters and as Dee said leave it in a box at home, lighten your load for the weekend, enjoy being far away from the hospital and relax relax relax, give yourself a break WE all insist.

You deserve it so have a wonderful weekend, look forward to it. Hugs and best wishes to you and your family.

Hi,

I am new here, I live in the States, and I am happy to have found your blog and this website. I am 39, surviving breast cancer, taking chemo and looking for a blog of fellow cancer warriors.

I am like you and do not know just  how to answer when someone asks how I am doing....... do they really want to know, are they just being polite, are they referring to the cancer, etc.  I want to say, "well for beating cancer and dealing with chemo, I am doing good", this causes them to believe everything is just fine. Aside from the obvious I "am fine". But underneath the smile, I am NOT FINE. I am scared, I am hurting, I am sick, I can't sleep and I am confused. But I can't wear a shirt that says all that, so I just say, "I am fine". It is better to say nothing then to look weak. Some days are good, so are not.

I appreciate everyone sharing their thoughts and advice on here, it makes me feel better knowing that I have the same issues and concerns and it is ok to be that way.

Thanks everyone but I can't go at the weekend now, my blood count was too low today to have chemo tomorrow, so I have to be here for a blood test on Monday morning , with Chemo Tuesday if all ok, if not an injection to stimulate the bone marrow to behave it's self.

Oh I forgot to add that I had a blood test yesterday but the nurse forgot to label the samples so they couldn't be used, so that's why I had another lot done today... nothing is simple with me these days.